at your insistence
i'll maintain my distance
cause you say it's better off this way

but suppose there was an instance
where we could both be consistent
would you wanna stay

the dynamic keeps switchin'
everyday you feel different
i'm trying to respect the change

know you've been resistant
your motivation to try nonexistent
guess i just wanna hear you say

you miss me pushing you're limits
i can't stop reminiscin'
about you everyday

Self-sabotage comes naturally to
me, I know not to plunge myself
into the deep dark abyss before
me but alas I just can't help myself
from jumping headfirst and screaming.

As the sun goes to sleep
I lay awake and weep
As I welcome the moon
I’m surprised it came so soon
Why am I crying
I’m not sure I keep daydreaming
Of a better tomorrow
A day not filled with sorrow
Seems like yesterday
When I last saw your face
Anyways
I suppose I’ll leave
These stories of make believe
Far behind me
While I say goodbye
Resisting the urge to cry
Goodbye dear moon
I know I’ll see you soon

I could not outrun my name

nor the expectations that came with it.

You wore it as a badge

I wore it as a curse.