We were both gamblers,
And darling, we were all in.

Knowing there was a possibility
Of holes left in our hearts
being unable to mend.

I know life always has a way of leaving us broken, but darling, for tonight, let's pretend.

Risking the chance we could be left with nothing, we put in all we had.

But in the end, even though we lost everything, life didn't seem so bad.

We knew what we were getting ourselves into.

All or nothing

It just so happens that this time,
Life chose nothing.

But we still somehow believed that we had gained from something.

We had discovered sides of ourselves that the other brought to light,

And they were worth knowing, even though now, we are simply a lost dream in the night.

I’m accompanied
by two tonight,
agony and her
beloved insomnia

Nothing lives inside
me any longer  
Perhaps I orphaned
this heart of mine,
when I didn’t listen
to its desperate cries
in need for a shelter

Cursed with homesickness,  
an abysmal void grew within me
that’s where I found refuge

I write so not to
suffocate on my
smoky thoughts

I write so not to
forget that I, too,
have a voice that
won’t be silenced

I write so not to
use the knife
as an outlet

I write so not to
choke on the thorny words
that linger in my throat

I write so not to
be hushed by my—
inner demons
—sweet seductress

I write so not to
burn alone in
my own inferno

I write so not to
die

I don't know what to do.

I don't know why I'm here, I used to be happy, lively and have direction, now its all gone, im hollow and don't recognize my own reflection

I don't know why I wake up or if I even want too, the heaviness in my chest has taken over and the world i see has a grey hue.

all i want to do is close the door too not feel this pain anymore, run away and cut the tape but the shadows of me wont let me escape

I cant go on living this way, but cant go back the way I came I need to find a way to move on but all my will has somehow gone

I have no direction, no goals and no dreams but when I try to think about it all I hear are internal screams, I'm  just alive for the sake of being alive and soon even that wont be enough, my life is in a constant nose dive and climbing out is too tough

I've been falling for far too long, theirs nothing left, I'm not strong , every decision I make seems wrong and plummets me further into this horrifying hole that has become my life, every minute I'm alive I'm having internal strife about weather I should keep trying or grab the closest  knife.

I know that's the cowards way out of this hell, so for now I'm going to keep trying to escape this cell, ill keep trying to cope and with what's left of me, I'll try to hold on to the hope, that one day ill see, that this pain hasn't killed what's left of Salvi, and maybe I've just been sick forever, and that one day all of this will make sense when I finally get better.

We are lovers,
Loving those in need,
Those who deserve it,
Who sit broken, they bleed.

We are friends,
Of the paper and ink,
Writing what we want,
With little time to think.

We are tenants,
Of a place we call home,
Writing freely in this space,
Which we wish to own.

We are dreamers,
We live in our heads,
Connecting our thoughts,
With thousands of threads.

We are poets,
Writers of the arts,
Sharing deep secrets,
From the deepest of hearts.