I've grown distant.
I've grown appart.
I've separated
myself, my heart.

My identity hidden.
My soul is lost.
my heart was beating
but then it stopped.

I carried on without it,
slowly dying inside.
As my existence was descending,
I started to wither and hide.

In the shadows I lurked
and barely spoke a word.
My mind started to work.
I started to wonder,
my thoughts couldn't stop
I started to ponder.

What would life be
if my heart would just beat?
My identity seen.
The dudum dudum on repeat.

Where I wasn't distant,
still held together.
I could be myself,
truly forever.

History
a mystery
of facts
and artefacts
swallowed by time

evolution
or revolution
fossilised claws
and medieval wars
fallen in time

monarchy
hierarchy
ruling society
to equality
change over time

existence
a distance
from memory
a stone in a cemetery
rotting over time

shut up
boxed up
laid down
in the ground
shipped to a new time

forgotten
or a mystery
written
our history
forgotten in time

father, brother
4th son of mother

followed, observed
DNA preserved

hybrid, thinning
since the beginning

children moreso
narrowing torso

paralyzed, disrobed
scooped and probed

flashes, voices,
there are no choices

human emotion
what they crave

that's what it is
to be a slave

Your coal black eyes
Burn my soul like fire
Feelings of lust
Uncontrollable desire

A queen of the night
Out hunting for a mate
When I looked at you
It would seal my fate

Hungrily looking at me
Like a lioness at her prey
Softly whispering in my ear
Here's what you'd say

You shall lay on the altar of the dead
There your life shall bleed
Draining every drop of your crimson nectar
Every drop I need

Passionately kissing me on my neck
Searching for a vein
Sinking your fangs deeply in
Feeling pleasure no pain

Making love to me under the moon
As I slowly died
I forever shall be your king
Eternally by your side

So now you're finally here
My voice is hoarse, I have no tears
I shed them all when I screamed your name
So long and so loud but you never came!

I only saw you in my dreams
Apart from that you remained unseen
You promised you'd be there for me
But you weren't when my world split its seams!

I tried to crawl away
Away from the fighting and the pain
But all I have, it seems
Is this world others have made!

So don't tell me to calm down!
Why don't you just go away?
Leave me be, as you did
And ignore me as I fade away!

Late night in deep thought
I can't help but wonder
Cure for my heart I sought
Endlessly, I ponder

What was I lacking?
What didn't I do?
You left me all alone crying
I thought your love was true

Oh, how it hurts my heart
How easily you had let me go
To me — you were the best part
Oh, how I wish you'd know

No matter how much tears I cry
And how much broken poems I write
All I could do is deeply sigh
As your memories come back at night

Tell me how long would it take
For a pain like this to end
I wish you could hear my heart break
For you're the only one who could mend

What is else is there to do
Then wish you to be happy?
Yes. Be happy. Please do.
Even if it's not with me.