mhm it's 6 am...
I drank too much
opened the door...
who could it be?
I see two...it's my lady
"how could you? can you see?"
"what's wrong with you!?"
Mh, Maybe it's me? or
maybe it's her?
drunk on the floor as I try to reoccur
all of her words...
all of her...
baby I wuv...you..****, my words are slurred
she says "I'm done!"
I said "Just wait!!"
this instability is what you create!
you hurt me and desert me!
why don't we touch!?
I come home...all you say is "Lunch!"
I know I'm wrong...I drink too much.
I'm sorry, if I forgot to say...
"Baby, you look gorgeous today."
Time has changed all my usual ways
I don't think...you'll like what I'm about to say.

I go out and like to sit down
grab a beer and talk to a crowd
of different women, with different missions
some are divorced, the others are still making decisions
I enjoy to hear their stories, see if I can relate
I then ask myself..."How can love turn so quickly into hate?"
I know you feel the same, don't look at me in shame!
I saw you go out the other night with your "girls"
but you were really with whatever his name!
"no I wasn't"
Now wait, I'm not done!
you know that holding on is just no fun.
we've grown apart over the years, baby... let's just go and move on...
do right by ourselves and even more by our son.
Love isn't a game...and if it was we both forgot how to play..
I'll always have a place for you in my heart, no matter what. That's all I'm trying to say.

I..."NO! It's my turn to speak! First off that was my Co-worker! and his name was steve, you met him and his wife! and don't you dare say another thing!
You've been cheating for years and hurting EVERYTHING!
In college you were the best thing that heaven could bring! now all you do is leave me hanging by a string. I wait with the kids as you go and get lit...you kiss the shot glass more than you kiss me. You tell all your jokes to these girls you've never met...After the baby, I don't know the last time we had ***! You come home and just stare, pretend like you're there... the kids barely know who you are and I don't think you could care. You hurt and you rip! It's been seven years...you walk right on past me as I shed all these tears. I pray everyday that you will one day look my way... that you'll stop hurting me so much and change your dark ways. I must be a fool...to think I'd change you by force...well I'm done I'M DONE....***, I WANT...A...divorce (she starts to cry) hmm babe I need to let you go, I need to take our kids and grow...hmm I just need you to know that I always knew...Now please let me be mhmm just promise, PROMISE, PROMISEEE....that you'll let me be free."

I...****. I came home baby, this just got so crazy. I remember all those days calling you my lady...
I thought I was in control and realized I was wrong...this liquid confidence gave me the idea that it would be good if you were gone...
I know I was wrong
can I...
can I...
maybe it's too late to explain...
Divorce seems to be the only way to free us from these miserable chains.
I wanna say I'm sorry...But a cheater never truly changes, nor wins.
I beg for forgiveness and hope god will let me in.
Crazy how love starts so fast and hits so quick...
If you were to ask me then where'd I be seven years later...
I wouldn't ever imagined this.


I'm sorry. I only wish for one last kiss..
I also hope you meet someone who sees, sees all I missed.

(Give me the paper, I'll sign this)

No family pick-nicks, no "good morning baby", no "Good morning" to my kids...just days and days of deep remorse...I guess this what it all means...this is the pain...this is...

He stops writing this letter.

This is Divorce.

I've been staring at this
****
blinking
cursor
for about forty-five minutes
& still have absolutely nothing
to write about
Maybe I'll write
about him or the
way he makes me
feel inside my
awkward stomach,
or maybe I'll go
a different route
& write about
the way it
feels in my
chest to
think
about
him
.


Like a dagger to my heart

Suddenly heavy thoughts are caving down in my head
Seems her original plan was entirely false and mislead
She just wants to be friends
But I already got a team
I need a woman who can act strong
When life starts to change scenes
We both complex human beings
Overthinking takes a major role
You worried about your future
I'm afraid if a lie will be told.
Ya last man changed, my personality known too be cold.
But you bring out the best in me and that's just something I don't wanna let go.

I'm here to uplift you
Show you a better man
Kiss you on ya forehead
Become ya biggest fan
Carry all ya baggage and tell you which one is dead weight
Relieve you of all ya stress
And expose your positive traits
but It's hard to see you doubt me and expect me to wanna stick around
Doing ya whole circus act
Turnin my persona into a clown
When I just wanna hold you down
And enhance ya internal beauty
I know being a couple is tough
Trust me, this all so new too me

But this is my last shot
If I miss, it's the end of the game
Then it'll be to late when you have regret and ya mind decides to change.

*I'm just thinking outloud...and talking a little to much
This my last letter to you
Think it's time to move on from this hopeless crush.

I could talk to you for hours and keep a smile on the phone
We could walk on the beach, as it's your hand that I hold
I can look into your eyes
And be so genuinely hypnotized
Thinking how truly lucky I am to have a woman like you be mine
I can ask you any question, anywhere, any time
And know when you're hurting bad cause I can read all your signs
Be the support that you need and the bandage to help you heal
Slow kisses to your navel and let you know our affection is real
I'll miss you when you're gone
But know ill see you soon
Every time I see your smile
My love for you re blooms
Light tickles to your hand
I know you love that light touch
I know you love butterfly kisses
I know what to say to make you blush....
(Alarm clock)
****, it was all just a dream...she's not mine and those words don't mean a thing
I just imagine all we could be...and want it so much
Guess I've become a firm believer in hope...in my imaginary crush.

I can love ya girl
Nothing will change,
No one can stop us
I'm the one you can always trust
Imma love this girl
She completes me.
I'm the drug thru her veins
Baby, fight through the pain
Imma fulfill her desire
Enhance her passionate dreams
Her kiss makes me weak
Her body is my need
He may be right now
But I'm all you need
I hate liking a crush..
Cause they always end up...
Being make believe.*
-Dougie simps