it's so strange afterwards when it's finished when it has been finished for some time-- she sat on her bed in her bedroom and I sat in a chair and I had to tell her how strange it was-- "nothing against you but when I look at you now I can't understand how you ever made a madman out of me, how you got hold of my feelings..." she just sat there and smiled, her body the same, her red hair as long as ever. she had never loved me. it only mattered a little to her that I had gotten away. she was working on other prey. she sat there and told me about him. I listened. when I left I didn't kiss her goodbye. I got into my car and drove away. after driving 4 or 5 blocks I was no longer thinking about her.
I didn't really know much about whirlwind love or shotgun weddings Until I went out with a forbidden boy in my new city almost immediately we were struck by lightning electric and on fire with his hand on my face dancing and kissing and sweating and laughing someone thought we were married so to make it right he got down on one knee and I spent the week as Mrs. S I broke all my own rules with him *** with the lights on, holding hands in public giving up my jaded and calloused heart my favorite moment? standing in the shower with him listening to Beach House hot water falling on us like sweet honey in the summertime the soft glow of afternoon sunshine beaming in from the window we took turns washing each other's hair and kissing each other's necks nothing has ever felt so pure so safe so beautiful -
As the last few heartbeats ticked away The world stopped turning Everyone stood still Skyscrapers turned purple Purple waterfalls Purple skies Purple tears Across the globe People congregated dancing to the beats Of a fallen warrior And people hung their heads low Filled with sorrow Over the death of a legend Younger generations exposed to the music That shaped their parents A whole world stopped From the loss of a single man All around the world Everything stopped When all around the world People are being killed and tortured When all around the world Children are being left to die When all around the world People are dying on the streets When all around the world People are killing themselves What will it take for the whole world to stop Just because I died?
Open arms Like a friendly invitation Calling me in Drawing me closer Wrapping around me Squeezing so tight Tight around my neck No breath Pleading Begging They let go Choke back my tears Apologize I accept Hug and make up? Nod of my head Familiar hands on my back Stab Blind sided Falling for the trick Falling on my knees Begging please Hand me a bandaid Stick it on my back Tell me it's all better While there's blood running Running down my back Pooling at my feet But we pretend Pretend it isn't there Like we don't see it Oh what good actors Great actors we are How could we possibly ignore The life slowly seeping Out of me