Shouts, pounds,
Squeaking trainers,
And once again I'm just one,
Of a team of failures.

My name is called,
I hear too late,
Whip round my head,
But take the full weight.

Glasses fly off,
I fall to the floor,
Dazed and out of breath,
And a demoralizing score.

The world becomes blurred,
And nothing is clear,
Except the laughter,
The accusatory jeers.

This is my reward,
For trying my best?
Well in that case enjoy your three man team,
Because I need a rest.

I wish I could say
What you mean to me
But then
It is in school
And then you won't realise
That our jokes
That confuse others
Make me jump
Inside
Crying with laughter
And wishing
You'd just reach out
And hold my hand

What is the point of living
When you have boundaries hindering on your way,
When freedom has been snatched away,
When your wings have been cut off
When you can't fly.

What is the point of living
When you have to hide
In your lonely burrow
When you can't keep your past aside,
Or move on to another direction,
When you fake happiness
Just live life with simple deception?

What is the point of living
When you don't go out to search
Search for happiness
'Cause it doesn't come to meet you
You have to reach it
It won't take you by the hand
And propose to you
You have to stop bending knees
In front of the gloom
And do the same to tranquility
For then your heart will bloom.

What is the point of living
When you die with that heavy weight in you?
It's better to start forgiving
Yourself
'Cause you've lived your past once
Don't let it ruin you
By thinking about it infinite times
Instead,
Just think about the future
Think about how the world will look like
When everything's changed
Think about how you will see life
With the eyes or your parents
Think about how twisted the path can be
When you continue to move on it
And how these twist have changed you
And how you won't regret it.

I imagined I gave you,
All the love in every vein I could,
Every part of me I thought was good,
And every word I knew I should,
Share with you.

I imagined your hand in mine,
Comforting me when I was down,
Pulling me out when I almost drowned,
Accepting me when I found,
Another inside.

I imagined I held you,
When your ocean eyes were filled with tears,
When your perfect heart was drilled with fear,
When all you wanted was not to hear,
Deafening noise.

I imagined I was there,
When happiness lost its ring,
When you needed me more than anything,
When all you wanted was to hear me sing,
My love to you.

I imagined a world where you and I could share glances with each other,
Or gaze for eternity,
Where time lost its hold,
And let us slip between the hours,
In an endless embrace

I imagined an infinity of loving you,
But none of it outshone reality.