Cierra Spina

Cierra Spina Oct 2017

Birdsong

As the sky lightens
The birds begin their songs
But how can they sing
To a world where you're no longer mine
How can they chirp
When this feeling isn't fine
A love lost
Is reason enough to halt a song
But still, they sing
As if nothing is or was ever
Wrong

#love #birds #feelings

Cierra Spina Apr 2017

Rabbit hole

There's this rabbit hole
I'm slowing falling down
Night after night I think of you
More
Than I ever use to
I saw a picture of you Friday
Broke my heart again
You're not supposed to still look
Just like you did
When your love was
Mine
I've started to miss you again
After doing so well
This isn't like wonderland
It's my own
pitiful
hell

#hell #past #sad #love #brokenhearts

Cierra Spina Apr 2017

Untitled

maybe someone is stealing my dreams
******* them out gently as I sleep
I wake with a vague notion of images
swimming
pictures
but lost concepts
and feeling used
dried even
like a sponge being purged of its liquid
taking the contents and leaving a shell
I'm feeling this most days now
maybe this is hell

#hell #dreams #depression #lost #sleep

Cierra Spina Apr 2017

Martyr

It's so hard to live with a martyr attitude
so quick to die for everything else
everyone else

#martyr #die #life #people

Cierra Spina Feb 2017

Landing

I can feel gravity grasping at me
clutching me
bringing me back down
drifting down from the sky
is like
falling out of love
you feel heavy
the gradual pull
and suddenly
*it's gone

#love #gravity #falling #planes #landing

Cierra Spina Oct 2016

2:47

I don't want to do anything
I want to sit
Or lay
And not move another day
Curl in a ball
Of warmth
I want to sway
And rock
Wishing away my sorrows

I wasn't cut out for this
I want to lay and listen
The idea of being out there kills me
It shouldn't
If I was consistent
Normal
It'd be the best time
I literally can't

I wrote this under the influence

#poem #depressed #high

Cierra Spina Jul 2016

soft focus

Scrolling
Typing
Posting
Never concentrating on the act itself
Just flowing through the day to day
I don’t know if I actually focus on anything
I just go through the motions
I’ve gotten so good at not committing to anything
I won’t even commit to an action
A thought
An idea to act on
How do you fix your biggest problem,
when your biggest problem is you?

#poetry #life #thoughts #focus #commitment