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Christina Cox Dec 2015
Who is this person staring me down?
Watching me without any doubts.
She sees who I am behind the mask I wear.
She knows who I am without speaking.
This woman knows the pain I feel inside.
This woman understands why I do what I do.
This girl looks into my eyes and doesn’t even blink.
This girl sees the truth I don’t want to see.
Christina Cox Dec 2015
In good or bad times
look within yourself and find
truth behind the lies.
Christina Cox Dec 2015
If God is real, then I pray to him to heal my mind, body, and soul.
If Christ is real, then I pray to him to take away the pain he knows is real.
If Angels are real, then I pray to my guardian to keep me safe from my own hands.
If Fallen Angels are real, then I pray to them to take my guardian away.
If Demons are real, then I pray to the one inhabiting my body to leave or take over fully.
If Lucifer is real, then I pray to him to send more demons and make me take my own life.
  Dec 2015 Christina Cox
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If I were to **** one person
It wouldn't be a person at all.
It would be the monster
That is
You.
Christina Cox Dec 2015
During sunrise I see colors of the light moving through the clouds.
During sunrise I hear the clocks and alarms going off on my phone.
During sunrise I feel the blanket and the comfort heat of my bed.

During the day I see the sun and the earth we live on circles it.
During the day I hear the birds and the air we breathe keeps them up.
During the day I feel the grass and smell the flowers growing in it.

During sunset I see the colors in the west instead of the east.
During sunset I hear the words of couples falling in love.
During sunset I feel the dreams coming true throughout the world.

During the night I see the moon and stars and reach for them.
During the night I hear the wind moving through the leaves outside.
During the night I feel the cold of the air circling the stormy world.

Throughout the night I see the nightmares and wake with tears.
Throughout the night I hear music playing keeping my calm in the dark.
Throughout the night I feel the sheets tucked all around me as I sleep.
Christina Cox Dec 2015
I wish I could tell you what is in my head.
Not just the emotions but the stream of words I never said.
“**** this ****,” and “**** it all.”
“Go to Hell,” and “You’re an *******.”
Sometimes to the people walking down the street.
Often to my family sitting watching television.
But mostly to myself when I’m looking  in a mirror.
To myself though, I say the words out loud.
I also include, “I should just die.”
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