Seventeen,
with my whole life ahead of me.
Wondering what will I be?
I've lost some friends
a while back.
I close my eyes;
hear fading laughs.
It makes me long for the past.
I wish that I
could turn back time,
stop all that
which made me cry;
prevent all those hard goodbyes.
But I can't.
And that is that.
I must survive from where I'm at.
Seventeen,
a confused me.
Unsure of what I want to be.
So many choices
now to make.
I choose my path,
pray I won't break,
struggle on through my mistakes.
I try to do
most things right.
Early mornings,
later nights;
hanging on for dear life.
Seventeen,
ashamed of me.
So scared of what I'm gonna be.
Starting to think
of what life will bring:
a husband? kids?
a home? a dream?
Who will be there,
at my side,
through both the great
and horrid times?
For what and whom will I cry?
Will the friends
that I have now
survive the years
beyond somehow?
Seventeen,
barely me.
No need to fret of what I'll be.
I am young
and in my prime,
a thousand ways
to pass the time.
The days will come
and I will know
what is down
this winding road.
For now I'm
ignorant and naive
with my whole life
awaiting me.
No need to know everything.
Seventeen,
completely me.
For now I'm all I need to be.
A reflection from and for my younger self