I can always
take care
of myself.

But I want
to meet someone
who can prove to me
that maybe,
I can't.

I’ve thought of it a thousand times
That I should always bring it on
How could this foolish heart of mine
If your memories still linger on?

I tried to tell my love for you
In a letter sealed but never sent
A thousand prayers so I can do
To no avail 'cause I simply can’t

Your love was already caught
By a beautiful maiden I have known
I’m still a loser though I had fought
For my feelings I had never shown

If I would dare I’d really shout
Your name for which I madly cared
But there lies a thousand doubts
That you’d take it all for granted

A thousand aching memories
I think shall never be forgot
Still whispers to me in the air
The love for you who loves me not

A thousand longings tore my soul
And left me in uncertainty
How could I reveal my love
**To you who did not care for me?

But I can still hear
your warm breath on my right ear
darling, loud and clear.

But I can still see
your eyes glancing my body
I know you want me.

But I can still smell
your daily shaving gel
suits your jaw so well.

But I can still taste
your tongue kissing me with haste
with hands on my waist

But I can still feel
This emotions that could ****
powerful and real.

For all the places I used to go
I rock the world for them to know
That though smiles are what they saw
The pain in me will always flow

For all the things I used to do
Is beyond compare when done with you
I would never dare to find someone new
Though time with you is but a few

For all the scenes I used to see
Is a play that ends happily
Until my life had lost its beauty
Now that you’re apart from me


For all the sounds I used to hear
Is a beautiful music when you’re near
But the melody is now a drop of tear
Because of the pain i have to bear

For all the pain I used to feel
This is the hardest to conceal
Smiles won’t be enough to seal
And forever is too short to heal

For all the words I used to speak
“goodbyes” are the ones that makes me sick
Letting you go had left me weak
'cause loving you is a hard habit to break

For all the people I used to meet
You are the impossible to forget
Though leaving you is a big regret
I haven’t learned to hate you yet

But…

For all of these I wish you know
That Boy, I still love you so…

She was the laughter
drowning the comedy
in your living room.
The gasps and shrieks
that accompanies
your favorite horror movies.

She was the enticing aroma
in your kitchen.
The clattering of utensils
in your dining table,
fork on her right hand,
then spoon on her left.

She was the diva
in your shower.
The vanilla scent
that lingers.

She was the moans
and giggles
that echoes
in your bedroom wall.
The warmth
of your duvet.
The sweat
in your sheets.
She was the figure left
in your unmade bed.

She was the name
at the back of your head.
She was the thousand memories
you dared to forget.
But can’t.

I do not wish
for someone
who would offer me
the moon and the stars.

Just someone
to lay down with
and watch them
is enough.