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Your shirt is my pillowcase
As I stare at the ceiling
In hopes that sleep will take me in her embrace
And if she happens to be in a fowl mood
I will have you there to protect me from the demons she throws at me
I promised you I'd sleep
But instead I'm holding back screams

I promised you I'd be okay
But I've fallen harder than I have in two months

I promised you I'd stay clean
And sweetheart, I'm trying
I'm trying so ******* hard but I don't think I'll make it through the night without something to show for it. I'm sorry
You say I do it for the attention
If I was doing it for the attention I would cut where you could see the scars
That I'm just doing it because its "trendy"
I'm doing is because I was so sad I wanted to feel something other than my breaking heart
That its not me
I may not like it but it is just as much me as my hand or leg

You whisper behind my back about me being "sick"
I am not ******* sick I am hurt. I need help but heaven forbid you be the one with the out stretched hand
All the things you say when you think I can't hear you
I can hear the whispers, the murmurs, the tiny little things you say about me affect how many cuts will be on my arm the next day
You say I'm ruining my body
I am hurting myself but if you can't look past the scars and love me then *******.

Yes I cut.
I am not proud of the fact that I pick up a blade and put it down on my thigh.
I want to get better
But I can't if you won't acknowledge what I've been doing.

Please help me.
Why won't you listen to me?
I'm screaming please help.
Evah: noun
Meaning: The one I want to spend the rest of my life with, The one who stole my heart, My safe place, My sweetheart, The one I would tear the stars down for and steel the sun from the sky if she wished, My home
I'm empty again
All emotions and feelings
Drained away
Leaving me empty
Its nothing new
I'm used to it now
But still it feels wrong
What should I do?
How can I make it stop?
Empty again
I hate it
But hate is just a word with no meaning
Nothing behind the words
I love you is just a thing people say
It doesn't mean anything to me
I hurt my friends because I can't understand the things they are feeling
Empty again
Again
Again
I am
Empty
As I sat upon a mountain glade

I chanced upon a fairy raid.

There's beauty and joy and danger to see,

Danger at least for a mortal like me.

Though music was played I could hear none

As Sunday's faded and moonlight shone.

The Fairy King and Queen passed on by,

Raised upon oak leaves, servants held them high.

I saw fairies drink from acorn cups provided by the trees,

Though tired and thirsty none was offered,

From any of them to me.

Then the fairies arose and formed a ring

And a tiny creature began to sing.

Soon the dancing was fast and free

I was dizzy but watched with glee.

Then all too soon the dawn light appeared

And before my eyes the fairies cleared.

I felt forlorn to see them go

Fairy folk put on quite a show.

Where they went to I can't be sure

I'll only tell you what I saw.
This is one of a set I have written. I thought hard about posting this in light of people stealing work but my work is all copyrighted and as a member of a writing group I have independently documented proof that this is mine So No Stealing!!
There is a word

More powerful than any other...

Mythologised,

Romanticized,

Deified.

Men would fast for it,

Fight for it,

Live for it,

Die for it,

In hopes it could be passed

From one generation to the next.

Religions have been founded on it.

Countries went to war for it.

Way before Tolkien devised one ring to rule them all

There was a word,

Whispered and screamed.

The word was peace.

All I ask

Is don't tell me

Show me.
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