I watched my best friend's eyes well up
with the burning words of his ex girlfriend;
I watched her trickle down his cheek bones
& all over his blue t-shirt;
I tried to wipe her away with my finger tips,
But I was too late.

She had stained him,
From head to toe he was drenched in her
And even if I had caught her
Before she even touched his skin,
I don't think I would've been able to keep him clean
Because my hands were ***** too
With the grotesque words
Of my ex boyfriend

So we'll just sit here,
An other year unchanged
A deck of cards
& a bottle of whiskey
In the space between our knee caps;
Staring into each other's pain,
Strewn recklessly over my bedroom floor

We'll just sit here,
Filthy together for an other year
Of scrubbing the wasted passion from our bones

I swore I'd never feel like this again
I said I'd **** the butterflies before they landed
But you laughed lightly
You stretched slowly
You smiled to yourself
You smiled at me
And by the time I looked away
They were already in me
Laying eggs
And digging up old graves
They're flying rapidly now
Carried by the vibrations in your voice
They want you to move closer
They want to feel alive
I can't stop them this time
They're batting wings
Straight toward you
They've got me batting eyelashes
Every time I see you
Make it stop
I don't wanna have you
Cause I don't wanna need you
And
I don't wanna love you
Cause I don't wanna miss you