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Blu3moth Jun 2017
"Where do you see yourself in five years?"
"Hopefully done with college"
"Married with a couple of kids"
"Buying my own house and starting a business"
"No debt. Everything, student loans and car payments gone"
The typical answers to that question
Want to know mine?
I never saw my future as bright
Hell never thought I'll get this far
I can see the end of my path
Where do I see myself in five years?
Depressed if I'm not already
Homeless because of my pride
Jobless because my stupidity
No one to turn to because of my negativity
Love is no where near me
That's the last thing on my mind
After food
After drink
After a roof over my brainless head
There's too much going on
No one will help me
Why would they?
It's all my own fault
So the answer to your question
In a different world
Hopefully a better one
After this one is behind me
Blu3moth Jun 2017
On a long road
Without destination
No idea where I will end up
Nor what keeps me going
Wish I knew
I want to stop
I'm tired
My eyes slowly closing on me
Almost causing me to crash
Causing me to finally stop
An endless road trip
I don't have a home
Not really
So where will I go?
I wish I knew
I guess what keeps me going
Is the hope that someday
I'll stop somewhere I can call home
I wish I knew where home was
Blu3moth Jun 2017
You have always hurt me
I haven't seemed helped from your abuse
Truth is
You're the only one that cares about me
You call me ****
Pathetic
Useless
You bash my head against walls because you know there is no use For someone like me
I'm expendable
You can see that
You once told me there's nothing for me in this world
Probably nothing in the next too
I finally agree with you
I always had hope
But you weren't stupid enough to waste your energy
You're right
I did give up a long time ago

Wait
Who am I talking to?
Oh yeah
That's right
I'm the only person in the room
Blu3moth Jun 2017
You pretend to know me
But have you really seen me
What I am on the inside
Wanting my outsides to die
My insides have gone long ago
Dying is just way too slow
Go on with your lives
I'll look out for you
Making sure you get what you want
Not thinking twice about what I sought
Until it's too late
To see if you would participate
In my needs
In my wants
In my life
Words from my mouth will preach forgiveness
But it's a lie
They preach that you forget this
You pretend to be sad
At my burning
At my suffocating
Wishing there was something you could do
Then you hate yourself
I looked for help under a disguise of boredom
You ignored me
I shared my feelings
You pushed them away
You despise yourself
Because you know I wouldn't have
Ignored you
Pushed you
Gave the attention needed
To stop you
From becoming what I see in the mirror
Blu3moth Jun 2017
Only have one purpose
In this pathetic
Excuse of a life
Wake up
Eat
Sleep
Repeat until beached on the shore
Or
Consumed by others with a mind of their own
Others with a sense of purpose
Motivation
Drive
Just a brainless creature with no conscious
That is what I am
Blu3moth Nov 2015
When buried under stress
From feeling heartbreak, fear, anxiety
Leads you feeling depressed, tired, and useless

There is a place to escape these
Where your pain becomes remedies
This place is called Dream

Lie in your bed
Rest your head
And feel the depression
The tears, the aches, the pain
Be absorbed by the comfort of your bed

Whatever you sleep in
It is more comfortable
Than the world you live in

This world of superiority
Of betrayal
Of lies
Of pain

Nothing else in existence
Is better than Dream
How to get there?

Not with a knife, alcohol, pills
Not with a bullet, or a rope

Take your time
Live through your life
And slowly shed the pain away

You'll realize that life is **** anyways
But look forward to getting into that bed
At the end of the day
Blu3moth Jul 2015
Why do you keep your feelings suppressed?
Is it because you're embarrassed?

Just let it all out even if you have to shout
I would help as best I can without a doubt

Don't take your life
Let's talk it out and you'll see how much you can strive
Dedicated to a friend. And those who are in need of help.
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