You're in my veins and the only way to get you out is to bleed out until I'm nothing.
*but I'm already close to being nothing

I want to feel something
I'm ******* numb
emotions don't exist
for me anymore
why do I keep trying
to feel something
that only exists
in ******* romance
novels?
******* NICHOLAS SPARKS!!

it's been thirty seven days
since we last spoke and the
only reason i know is because
that's how many packs of cigarettes
I've forced into my lungs

i drank an entire liquor store out
just to feel your bitter kisses burn
my lips and dehydrate my heart the
way you would rip me apart and leave
me to wither away in the dark night

i've gotten an inhaler just so i could
pump your heartbeat into my chest
to feel alive because this feeling is
so **** ******* suffocating and im
dying im dying imdyingimdying

please send help

please don't leave

please love me



please

but the scars
on your arms
aren't as bad
as the screams
in your head