There are 1.5 million of them.
Words, that is, in English.

Only three matter:
I is a pronoun.
Love, a verb.
And you is more important
Than all the rest.

One for every five-hundred-thousand,
But you is one in a trillion.

I wish I could tell you
How much the quality
Of my day
Depends on the quality
Of our interactions

But the quality
Of my years
Depends so much
On your reaction

An ordinary girl.
Rushes down the hallway.
Invisible, scared, and alone.

Her eyes are cast down.
As she shrinks into the background.
Afraid to be noticed.
Hoping that she can just get through the day.

She has created a barrier around herself to mask the pain.
Poisoned whispers follow her trail.
She puts on a brave face,
And wishes to disappear.

Her beauty is screaming from within.
"You are worthy."
But she continues to relish in her flaws.
As a stain on the world.

She attempts to reach out,
But is rejected and despised.
She contains the pain once again.
Hiding it beneath her solitude.

The days continue.
There are no more tears.
A beautiful darkness spreads within.
She no longer cares.

Today is the day.
A sense of elation begins.
She has made peace with her demons,
And has embraced her shame.

She is ready.
The metal is cold on her skin.
The blade makes its mark.
It slides across her soul.

She sighs and she laughs,
At the bright red pool forming on the floor.
She sees the rain shine through the dark.
And life's hopeless journey to the unknown begins.

Another ordinary girl is lost...

in what way do you expect me to rejoice?
when there's chaos all around me
in this silence i am drowning

when my best day
is another's worst nightmare
all my prayers are ignored

i close my eyes before i ever shoot
i can shoot them arrows with my eyes
but still i can't look at you

my hands shake before i pull the trigger
but when there's adrenaline theres rhythm
and when there's music ive got eagle eye precision

we're finding out this is all we've got
while i learn
you're chugging bottles just to feel it burn

and i know i said id stop
i know i said I'd quit
but this war won't end so ill stay here just as long

Love is a one sided fantasy

The next time you're tempted
To judge someone else harshly
See their health and happiness
A more positive route can build
Self esteem and healing and you
Will notice how much better you feel

There are many universal laws
And among them is our free will
Allowing us to make good choices
And wise decisions that help all
Bringing you ideas and clear clarity
To understand the needs of others

Our strength and truthfulness will
Help when feeling victimized and
Will gently guide our spoken words
So we communicate our needs to
Others and loving assertiveness
Becomes much easier for yourself

With that self inflicted wound were she ripped out her own soul
There was things she didn't know
Things that also had to go

What went first was empathy
Followed close by sympathy
Then of course was faith
But that really died with years of agonizing wreath
I would say dreams
But those died years ago it seems

What hurt the most
And why it was so hard to cope
Was the microcosm thin string holding hope
It was crushed in the grind
No where you look, will you find

She no longer believed in yin and yang
Or karma, they where the same, nonexistent
She seemed to know it in an instant
Nothing happened for a reason
To think that would be treason
It was all just random chaos, and dumb luck
Just depends on what side of the coin you're stuck
There was only random acts of cruelty
This world is more than unruly

With these facts now planted firmly in her head
What little light within her fled
The darkness slowly seeped inside
As she gasped out one silent sigh
Now totally consumed, she would never shed a tear, it was as if she had never cried
For her former self passed away, her old personality died

Behind that smile I've always noticed the pain,
But I was the weaker one, falling for the sound of your rain,
You made me forget what it felt like to be afraid of love,
Now I'm wondering if I'll ever be in the same presence of your touch,
I'm wondering if someone else is the reason for your smile,
And if there is I couldn't blame you, look at the miles between us,
Look at the many rivers and mountains that separate our reasons,
Reasons for us to be together, reasons for us to pull down the moon together,
Reasons for us to march on unknown land,
But we can't,
the reason somebody else is probably holding your hand,
The reason somebody else is standing where you stand,
I'm sorry I'm so far, I hope you find it in your soul to understand,