I’ve been trying to endure every pain and judgement
Fighting the demons that quietly whisper “You can’t”
I became fragile thinking that every day is like a trap
I got tired of replaying the things I never could grasp
Because I knew that looking for an outlet is tough
Tougher when you feel like you are not enough
But out of nowhere, people became my glimpse of hope
And soon, I realized it wasn’t really a tough road
I trusted the light and it gave birth to the flames
I became better and stronger that I broke the chains
These chains that held me down and created a barrier
But now, I am standing up for I am a warrior
i watch as the daylight shines,
igniting the light and faith in me.
i listen as the rain hits the roof,
realizing that i am losing myself in the calmness.
i lose hope as the candle that was giving me light,
now lost its spark, leaving me in the dark.
i search as i see you slowly fade away,
my heart longing to be in your arms.
i cling as our memories replay by itself,
remembering our laughter and smiles are gone.
i smile as i’ve always wanted a happy ending,
but now, i’ll settle for only an ending.
where are you?
we could be,
the light that never leaves a room dark.
the flowers that never wither under the sun.
the sun and stars that are always in the sky.
the success to every second chances.
the happy ending to every once upon a time.
but we couldn’t,
for you haven’t seen my efforts.
for you don’t appreciate it.
for you can’t accept what’s happening.
for you are blinded by our differences.
for we are too afraid of trying.
he reminds me of the color yellow,
he who brings warmth and happiness to every tomorrow
now, when i see color yellow, i remember you.
if you are going to fall in love with me,
you must know that i cry. a lot.
i cry during rainy days, sunny days, or on a monday morning.
i cry everytime i watch a happy movie and everytime i cut onions,
but do know that i cry harder every time i talk about the things that have hurt me, even if they don’t hurt anymore.
i need constant reassurance.
for i am afraid of being left behind, of being unloved.
i will probably tell you all the things i hate about myself
while you disagree with each one of them
but i still won’t believe every single word you’ll say.
i got used to shutting down the people who care about me.
it will be so hard for me to open up,
but all i’m asking you is to stay patient, and give me time to adjust.
you might think i’m rejecting your company,
but don’t blame yourself, i appreciate you.
so listen, if you are going to fall in love with me
understand that i’ve been through the worst
but still, i’ll love every inch of your skin unconditionally
a head’s up for my future lover
i looked around
and wondered maybe
he was right that’s why he left.
i got, once again, inspired by my latest post on instagram :)
countless stares and empty chairs.
a newfound solace in this empty space.
this was my ig post’s caption. i got inspired with the photo i took yesterday.
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