chasing you
is like trying to find the *** of gold
at the end of a rainbow

impossible

you are a dream
with no end

a nightmare
made up of the same monster

my lungs hurt
from chasing you

push me away before i lose my strength
because god knows
i will never stop chasing you

I don't remember the last time I felt awake
My mind has always been exhausted

Swollen eyes and red sockets
Made it so hard to stay awake
The after taste of my tears made me want to sleep forever

I'm always sad
Unless dead, sleeping is the only way out

I'm tired of everything
The world is too cruel to enjoy
Too cruel to wake up for

Honestly, too cruel to breathe for

I can't wait for the last breath that I take
Because in the after life
I'll be awake

I feel so ugly,
so out of place.
So worthless,
like I have the world to face.

Life pushes me,
this time I don't fight back.
I sit there and let it push me,
further,
further,
further down.
Nearly down a well of nothingness.

Here I am,
This is where I will stay.
I am happy this way

Happy feeling depressed.
Happy feeling worthless.
Happy feeling and being ugly.

I don't belong anywhere,
nowhere at all.