.
The valley sleeps but I cannot, I sit upon a rock,
So weary from all my days of toil and thought,
The moon's light caresses you, mighty one—
River will soon carry me down, and you will rise.

I was never the type
of child that obeyed
much  of anything;
not even the many
times  I was told
not to stare into
the evening sun
when I felt
alone.

Sometimes
all you can do
with a broken heart
is close it up
for repairs
hoping to
to reopen it
later, shinier.

Son, you were feral to remain within your sac;
the doctor slit your mother’s perineum
and you gasp breath.                                                          ­    

My  secret to you on that  day is the same
as I whisper today;  be the rare
pearl but do not

couple yourself to a strand, I did not raise
you to be like me,
not one bit.

Everybody tells me to leave
before it gets worse
'What would you do
if our rolls were reversed'

I'd tell you to get out
cause you deserve so much better
'So why do you keep going back
like one of those annoying chain letters'

Well, I'd rather get a little taste of passion
than no flavor at all
And if I want someone on top of me
I have no one else to call

And when I'm dealing with my selfhating mind
I need someone to silence it
I feel so desperately lonely without him
Even though he treats me like ****

Somehow I prefer getting hurt
over being my own best friend
I know I'm better off without him
Yet I'm terrified that it will end

and all you've left is
another layer to dry,
blue over my heart.