I feel like a feather
Floating atop vast ocean waters
Far from land
Just waiting for the waves to drown me

That anxiety alone could suffocate me

-ARI

There are
Far too many words
Far too many syllables
I never said to you.

There are
Far too many moments
Far too many memories
I never made with you.

There are
Far too many letters
Far to many notes
I never sent to you.

There are
Far too many tears
Far too many sleepless nights
Ever since you left.

I miss you.

-ARI

I often wonder
Who I’ll be
When the day comes
For us to meet.

I hope I’m brave
Kind and true
And hope my soul
Brings joy to you.

-ARI

My brother,
Please come back.
I need you so.

-ARI

My brother died 12 days ago.
I held him until his last heartbeat passed.
I watched my mothers heart break
And fathers world shatter.

I was there.
I watched his lips turn blue.
I felt the heat leave his body
And sobbed into his hospital gown.

My brother died 12 days ago.
I was the one to make the phone calls.
I’m the one who broke the news
To our family and friends.

I was there.
I walked down those halls.
I left my shattered soul
Sewn into the cracked tiles of that hospital.

My brother died 12 days ago.
I swear he took my heart with him.
He left my mind here to listen
To the countless “my condolences”.

I was there.
I saw the 300 people who loved him.
I met some of the countless souls
He guided through life storms.

My brother died 12 days ago.
I am still crying when no ones looking.
I buried my brother in the earth he loved
But his light and love lives in me now.

-ARI