arCamm

arCamm Jan 2021

I hope he knows that I feel the stress
vortex banging against his cranium.
even with my welcoming surface,
he struggles to let go.

I hope he knows that it is not I that
needs replacing,
but simply his way of thinking that
needs readjusting.

A new year
A mindset anew

Hello 2021

- a.r. Camm

Hello 2021,

I know that you’re going to bring some more bullsh** my way. Just to let you know now, I’m mentally preparing myself for you. You won’t catch me off guard like 2020 did. I’m ready for you. Bring it on.

#arcamm #happynewyear #2021 #pillowtalk #personification

arCamm Dec 2020

“Family Feud”

Perhaps, one day I’ll understand why you did it.

Why you pushed me through the ground and expected me to reach for your high expectations.
Why you branded me with your dying wishes and made me feel selfish for adding my own.
Why you assumed that it was the attraction of other women that ended our love when it was really because I chose to come home.
Why you listened to your heart and felt as if it was okay to mute out mine.
Why you pinned our actions against one another and claimed me dense and blind.

The list goes on and on but I for one don’t have that much time...

Perhaps, one day I’ll understand why you did it.

Why you made me feel like there’s nothing that I can do right.

- a.r. Camm

#hopeless #parents #feud #arcamm

arCamm Dec 2020

“The Reception”

1 shot:
Happy to meet your acquaintance
2 shots:
The groomsman is like a brother to me
3 shots:
That dress compliments you well and dare I say, you’re killin’ it.
4 shots:
What's your schedule like next week?
5 shots:
Look, I don't know if it's the alcohol or not, but I can see through your eyes that the love held in your heart is tied into a knot. Shards of broken hope disguising the lust you seek within me. Intrigued by my character and that "grown man" I put on, yet only drawn to the life of a mere liaison...

I'll leave the choice to you:
I can be your man for the night
or
I can be the man to show you how to love right

- a.r.Camm

I went to a wedding and met a young lady. It didnt take long for us to start chatting over a couple shots of tequila. Easy to say, she had been heart broken for some time and has giving up on any hopes of true love, thus her thirst for a lustful evening. I couldnt help it. I had to

#arcamm #thereception #love #lust #hopeless

arCamm Dec 2020

“Patient No More”

my patience is a shoelace weaving through hoops. within every turn, a new excuse
another complication,
another misfortune,
another nuisance that nooses
these protruding veins around my neck
until I suddenly can’t breathe.

they call this bow “tongue-tied”
it matches the “aggravated red” color way of my eyes
coupled with my “speechless black” aura...

for those of that I cut off,
you brought it upon yourself.

- a.r.Camm

My patience is not to be tested. I’m usually the generous kind of person. That is, until I’m taken for granted and continuously find myself waiting for someone to get their **** together.

#patience #arcamm

arCamm Dec 2020

"Intro: Ghost"

“yes...
feed me more
and soon I’ll show you
what you’re truly made of.
a mere lonely child,
misunderstood,
damaged,
a sad product
of failed dreams,
an experiment gone wrong,
too perfect to love,
an enraged beast,

unhinge me
and let me takeover
I’ll make sure
to get it right for you”

...okay.

- a.r.Camm

An inner beast remains locked away. Fueled by misery, vexation, and vengeance... the emotions we hold within instead of carrying out.

#arcamm #ghost #character #development #real #life

arCamm Dec 2020

“Warning”

Like any other Friday
I wake up early
get ready and
go work

but...

today,
I heard them,
and paused as I took
that first step out of the front door

the screams of my ancestors,

the desperate plea from
wrongly accused men,

the last words and breathe
of every black man,
woman,
and child
murdered in cold blood...

I heard their warning.
“Don’t go.”

I called off work.

- a.r.Camm

As a black man in America, it is common knowledge that as soon as I take a step outside, I am in danger. Justice in this country is non-existent (as if it ever existed in the first place for my people).

Thank you, ancestors.
for the warning.

#black #lives #matter #amerikka #arcamm #warning

arCamm Dec 2020

"Vulnerability"

This morning,
I opened the blinds
to my window

the sun rays beamed
at my face to say
"Welcome. Come on in."

I suddenly
thought to myself
"If only it were that easy for me."

- a.r.Camm

I don't just let anyone in and become vulnerable. I've been hurt way too many times. I may seem like an open book to people because of how outgoing I may seem, but really it's a way for me to keep myself safe...

Sorry to everyone who THINKS they know the real me.
To the select few that do...

Please... I beg of you... Don't hurt me...

#arcamm #vulnerability #sorry #hidinginside #introvert #safetynets