The majority of humanity thinks and believes that the mind-body is the whole being.
The majority of people today are stuck in dreams,
in characters.
Ever since it has become clear to me that i am not this body-mind,
i can do absolutely nothing this whole lifetime and still have so much fun peacefully observing every-single-thing.
And from the very moment of realization,
aside from learning as much as possible from this body and this world,
the wanting to share this experience has been tremendously irresistible.
Life and this entire world is so nice and beautiful and fun,
but it is all temporal,
it is not for ever,
it does not last for ever.
It is absolutely clear enough to see that every-thing that lives, dies.
My question then is:
Why are we so attached to the things of this world,
and why are we taking it all so serious?
It is the goal of Life for every-one to come to experience the Truth
A life-time is enough to touch people.
In this life-time,
threw Esteban,
i can demonstrate to others how life should be according to human nature.
But threw Esteban,
only a few years will be available.
Hence in these few years,
not a day will go by in which i am not following the heart,
and the Way of nature and Life.
It is threw my enjoyment of life,
threw my exploration of life,
that my true message is revealed.
I have thought about writing books;
but there is already so many books,
each expressing truth in different and unique ways..
Jesus was killed because he wouldn't stop expressing his truth.
And ever since the time of Jesus,
there have been so many books,
so many great books,
inspiring humanity to wake up.
So wether i write just another book on Truth or not,
it is the book of my whole life that will leave a mark on eternity;
not just a few truthful words,
but a whole truthful life.
And the funny thing is,
that it is such a simple thing to do..
It simply requires that one lets go of the image that has been created in the mind about who you think you are.
In other words,
the ego.
And not only who you think you are,
but also of who you want to be,
who you are struggling to be.
And that can be a hard thing for some people,
because they have been working ******* this image.
But this individuality,
this believe that you are separate from existence,
has to dissolve.
Because the whole effort to be famous and known in the world is only satisfying the ego.
The satisfaction is of your own mind,
and it comes when you can repeatedly tell your-self:
I am this. I have done this. I have achieved this. Look at who i am. Look at what i have done!
It is a silly idea that one has to let go of,
because truth is,
that we are not separate from the universe,
we are not divided from nature and existence.
The ego wants Life to be according to its own made up plan..
Forgetting that the whole evolution of Life and consciousness has been in it's process way before humans were created.
Therefor,
separating one's self from the whole of existence is a very silly thing to do.
Because every-thing that exists,
every-thing that lives,
is all working together,
as One,
according to Nature,
in accordance to the flow of Life.
Clearly enough,
all sufferings and all negativity,
arise when this separate image appears,
and tries to create its own personal way of life.
This imaginary identity desperately demands from life and says :
"Ok no! Why are things like this? Why are they not like this??"
In its own personal ignorance,
it asks for the impossible.
Ego is greedy.
It wants to be the owner of things,
it wants to be in control of everything.
It wants to control the weather..
If it is raining,
ego complains:
"****, why is it raining??"
If you have a girlfriend/ boyfriend,
ego wants to be in control,
bringing onto you,
self created conflicts by wanting things that can not be,
that can not happen.
One needs to understand how things truly are and begin to accept their reality.
Accept the things that we can control and the things we can not control.
The things that we are responsible for and the things we are not responsible for.
You are responsible for your life,
I am responsible for my life,
We are responsible for our lives,
and that is all.
As i see it,
life is a deep study of ourselves.
A challenging opportunity to analyze the things in us that have to be fixed,
that have to be balanced.
We can not keep going with life unconscious about our un-balances,
habits,
addictions.
We have to work on the things that are not right in us.
And even though we all have different un-balances,
in the end it comes down to knowing who we are.
When i say "we",
i am not talking about the mind-body organism;
When i say "we",
i am talking about the awareness.
So when i say "we",
i am referring NOT to the one who is talking right now using words, symbols, sounds, and language,
but to the silence from which all sounds come out of and eventually return to.
That silence i refer to as awareness.
It has no shape or form.
Awareness is formless.
And once we start to see that we are that which has no form,
we can then dis-identify from that which consists of form,
and this brings total freedom.
It means freedom from the things that come and go,
freedom from all that is temporal.
One begins to enter the realm of eternity.
One begins to understand how we are eternity itself.
What is the eternal?
The eternal is that which IS without any form.
And as it is clearly seen,
everything that has form at one point turns into no-form.
What ever has a form will eventually dissolve into no-form.
What is that inside of the form that allows the form to move?
What is it that gives life to the form?
The form disappears,
but that invisible force of energy always remains.
As far as my understanding goes as of now:
Just as we are not the creators,
the designers,
of our whole body,
we do not bind our-selves to the body either,
that is a job of God.
It is God who designed the body,
we are just the awareness.
And the awareness is everywhere,
in every-thing.
But as the awareness,
right now we are experiencing ourselves threw the human body,
and in the capacity of this human experience,
we are able to know our true selfs,
coming closer to God than ever before.
And the human life-form is the only life-form that can go so far in this understanding.
All other life-forms are incapable of this understanding.
The very same awareness that we are,
that is also in plants and animals,
can not have the same experience that the human body allows.
And that is all part of the goal of life and evolution.
That is the journey of consciousness,
to come to this point of being a human,
and here by,
totally allowing the understanding of who we are.
Now this can not be understood by the mind,
hence one must go beyond mind.
Because the mind is part of the body.
It is not the whole.
By my own understanding:
We can not rely on the mind.
We can not believe the mind.
We can not believe our thoughts.
We can not believe the thoughts of others.
We can not believe in believes because believe is not truth.
Wether one believes or does not believe,
truth remains truth.
The mind is an amazing tool,
provided by the human body,
to help and serve the human being;
To learn from the past,
and to plan for the future.
But we can not count on the mind to tell us what is true,
because mind is a huge storage room,
it is all memory;
Mind is like a computer full of data with so much information,
so much knowledge.
So much that the whole history of humanity is there.
But it is impossible to see ourselves threw the mind,
for the simple reason that WE can see the mind.
WE are aware of the mind.
WE are aware of thoughts.
WE see all images that happen in our head.
When we are thinking,
we are NOT the thinker.
This is where things went wrong.
When we started to believe that we are the thinker.
We started thinking so much,
that at some point,
not even realizing it,
we started to think and then believe,
that we are the thinker.
And this is the mind-trap that drowns us into confusions.
If your heart is speaking to you,
if something from within is pulling you,
it is going to happen.
If you are in the world,
and something does not feel right,
as if something is missing,
as if you are incomplete in some way,
and something has to be attained,
found,
you are going to find it,
as long as you stick with your feelings.
And even though it is a sucky situation,
even though it is not a totally peaceful struggle to figure out what is true and what is not true,
it will be impossible to run away from it,
because it will continue to haunt you.
It is always going to be there,
pulling you,
pulling you,
pulling you.
If you are feeling pulled into something great,
out of this world,
my advice,
is that you follow your feelings.
Forget all about this world.
Do not be concerned with what other people tell you.
Discover life on your own.
Discover truth for yourself.
Learn what you can from people.
Listen to people,
but do not believe people.
Flow with life,
and where ever you are,
be there as the observer.
If you are with people,
just watch people.
If you are by yourself,
just watch yourself.
Keep following your feelings.