hey, do you still remember me?
you know your "best friend"
the one you told everything too,
yeah, I'm also the one you ignore.
so I guess I lost you,
bye? I guess..

Weeks had gone by,
And you never left my mind.
From your lustrous, white smile
To your glistening brown eyes.
Your infectious, cute laugh
And all the moments we had.

"I love her," you said.
And that's when it all turned to ****.

they tell us to walk away,
from the things that hurt us,
but how do I get away from my thoughts?
how do I get away from the thing hurting me most?

I don't have a best friend
Not to be mistaken with having no friends
I do have some friends
But I have to the conclusion that they aren't trustworthy
Instead,  they are rather demanding
They have seen me laugh
and be funny
Talk about silly mistakes
and how others make me feel
They know that I don't have anyone in my life
and my unwillingness to dance
What they don't know
is that every day I fight
with myself
Not with scratches, blades and pins
But with my soul within
They don't know what I have been through
They have never seen the bruises still blue

They don't know
They just assume
They are not there when I am begging to up above
They are not there when I need a little love
They are not there when I have been crying for hours
They are not there when I feel like dying in the shower

Gossips and lame stuff is what they share
I continue to listen while the music continues to blare
There were many
who became my best friends over the years
Losing touch with them is what I feared
Then that's what happened
Sooner or later they forgot me
Phone calls became rarer
and Facebook our home.

Till today,  I stand without a best friend
Because I know I am whole
I am a winner
who stands alone.

We all have problems
I just wish you weren't the reason
for so many of them.

I don’t think you realise how happy you make me
The cute name calling,
The little kisses on my nose
And our 3 hour conversations.
It’s weird to think I only met you a week ago
And you’ve made such a dramatic impact on my life,
Instead of going to bed crying
I go to sleep smiling,
Because of you.
The days when we chased each other around on the beach
Was one of the happiest days I’ve had in so long
And to know that you’ll be leaving soon
Breaks my heart.
But I hope our 3 hour conversations every night
Never end
Because I love them,
So thank you,
Thank you for making me happy.