I've said it before
I've said calm and zen
I've declared and I've swore
And I'll say it again
I am not afraid to die

When I think of death my head is burning
And in a way I'm yearning
To be done with all this rotten lack of truth.

When I think of death my head is raving
And in a way I'm craving
To be done with all this agony
I've paid my dues
And I've got nothing left to lose
I'm not afraid to die

This seems hopeless and sad to you
You're wondering
"What does she live for, if she does not fear the universal fear?"
I will laugh at the odds, and laugh at everything, and laugh at the austere
And live my life so well that Death
Will falter, flicker, hesitate
And hover in reluctance
Before taking me away

Why the **** should I be sober?

All you've ever done is **** me over!

I'll drink, I'll smoke.

I'll do ******* till I go broke!

Cuz when I needed you, you weren't there.

But it's whatever, I don't care.

I'm done.
I've messed enough up.
I just need to leave.
But before I go, I need you to know that I love you.
I love you with all of my heart.
And I tried.
It may not seem like it but I was trying so hard.
Just know that I'm always here if you need me.
And if I die an early death, rejoice. Don't be sad.

Why do I care so much?
Can I not say what's on my mind,
when it needs to be said?
It's frustrating.
But you wouldn't know,
since all I ever talk about
is the fake ******* I know you wanna hear.
Because who would ever want
to know what's on my mind?
No one.
Anyway,
don't you remember?
You said "it's **** well obvious.."--
it's **** well obvious
that I'm done.

I'm done,
So guess what? You won,
And as I cry,
I want to die,
As I hold the knife steady,
I whisper "Take me god, please, I'm ready

I'm done
I'm done with this life that I live
Im done with everyone around me
Im done with people critizing me for how I feel
I'm done breathing
I'm done living

I don't have the strength to stand.

I'm done with the crying,
I'm done with the hurt,
I've given up fighting and I stay down in the dirt.

I'm numb,
I'm broken,
But I'm just sitting silently,

I'm done with the screaming,
I'm done with the yelling,
I'm done trying to make you hear me!

I can't make you hear me,
I can't make you see what you're doing to me.
Why can't you see?
Would you care?
Well, I don't have the strength anymore,
I'm done.

I'm done,
I'm done pretending there's a cure
I'm ******
****** in the head
****** in the heart
You've finished  me
you tore me down
and I concede defeat
I have nothing left to give
no reason left to live
I hate to admit it, but
I'm done