I wonder if the mothers of the
Boys we fall in love with
Know that they are the
Monsters we fear that
Lurk in the dark.
I wonder if the boys we
Fall in love with know
That we break and fall
Apart within their grasp
When they say, "I love you."
I wonder if they can
Hear us scream their names
When we have the nightmares
About their beautiful voices
Echoing through the night.
I wonder if they know
The pain that they cause
Within the bodies of future
Mothers who warn their daughters
About the men who've hurt them.
All I do is wonder.
I base the love that I have off of the monsters that plague my nights of sleep because I am too strong during the hours of my wake.