What is it about you that haunts me?
I let you go so I can set you free.
You meant everything to me and we were forever,
But it isn't our time to be together.
I was completely lost before I met you.
You gave me reason to live and direction to follow.
But now we're back at square one,
And the loneliness has already begun.
I promised you I'd never leave.
You promised never to let go of me.
Yet here we are, far apart in distance and in thought.
I wonder how we'd be if we hadn't fought.
Blocking is a blessing, and you used it well.
I regret my decision, now I'm in hell.
A life without you, is no life at all.
I just wish you'd pick up my call.
With several attempts I lost faith.
I think it's goodbye, this is our fate.
I'll always wonder if I made a mistake,
If I could've avoided all our heartache.
I didn't really know how else to let go of my emotions. Its really bad, I agree, but I needed some sort of an outlet for the hurt I was feeling. Much love.
It's really sad that so many of you can relate to this poem. I'm so sorry for whatever you're going through. Stay safe loves!
I can’t wait for the day when I don’t think of you,
when I feel acid rain pouring on my face like fiery fingers and tears,
or when curls bounce around my face like the phone cord in the first house I remember,
or drink cinnamon orange tea and write forty pages of gender theory.
I can’t wait for the day when I don't remember you won’t message back,
and I’m left on read like a newspaper reporter without a following,
or when brandy and coffee doesn’t smell like your breath or how I thought you’d taste.
Because fiery tears are acid rain on my cheeks
that won’t burn the scattered pieces of you away.
If my words make sense to you
then you might be as bad as me.
I'd say that I admire you,
but is that even a good thing?
It's 10:55 on December 27th and I swear that I
will be able to forget the constellation freckles on your arms
and how you shoved the "passive aggressive" note you asked me to write like I used to
into your bag and shrugged it off when I asked like--
like you don't know your own charm.
It told you to "stop messing around on Facebook and write your **** :)",
which may have been the last thing I would ever tell you to do--
just like you forgot how much you missed my notes and reminders and all of it
(except for me).
So, if you can forget about every Sunday night
and the way your fingers danced on my ankle and my thigh,
then I can pretend I never loved you in a way I swore no one else could
because, to this day, I'm upset that you seem to think that there was anyone else besides you
in this endless universe that ever would
I will forget the way you said my name when you were tired, frustrated, and alone,
and the way you asked me to get wine drunk,
because the 150 reasons that I was in love with you
are the same reasons that I need to let you go, too.
I woke up this morning and I was sad.
I’m not asking you to fix that,
I’m just asking that you love me until I’m happy again.
Then stay and love me until I’m sad again.
And over again.
I really think
that it is just a sin.
That when there is trouble
The Big Boys join in.
They all come across
saying that they'll make a change
and then somebodys World
they will then rearange.
The US and Russia
along with us Brits
don't want it that way
so we blow it to bits.
We give guns to him,
supply arms to another.
Then we sit back and watch
as Brother kills Brother.
Who are we to guide?
Who are we to preach.
When we cling on to their assets
like a blood ******* leach.
We should leave others alone
till our own house is done,
yet we watch as our schools
become run by the gun.
Where now it's the norm
to be shot as we learn,
just as long as big commerce
is able to earn.
Those who should know better
don't know how to behave
Happy to see
another Child in a Grave.
So you Big Boys go elsewhere
because it's well known
that if you come to play
you come armed with a Drone.
While you're sitting back
comfy in your armchair.
You can relentlessly ****
from a place that's not there.
Then when you pull the plug
and remove your devices
we are faced with a problem
of people making bad choices.
We have made problems worse!
We have let people down
and when we get a world crisis
we'll react with a frown.
We don't want them here.
They cannot go there.
A whole host of humanity
who is welcome Nowhere.
We created this problem!
We created this way.
So in the future
keep The Big Boys away.
3rd October 2015
© Copyright Christopher K Bayliss 2014
people only love me for moments
the first couple seconds
before im old to them
first couple seconds
before they're over it
im not sure ill ever be over it
not sure ill ever get over this
I'll never get over
how people never stay
how i can feel the loss
of somone i never had
how i can feel heart break
when i never really had a heart
because these people never loved me
and im not enough
to know how to love
does hurt me so much
when they leave
people only love me
when they need me
otherwise im just an empty vessel
trying to fill your needs
loves a nobody