I can distract myself
Long enough
To forget how much I love you
Until it’s 2 AM
And my restless thoughts
Echo your name.

I yearn for the warmth I felt
When I looked into your eyes
And for the strength I felt
In the fortress of your arms
And I search for the colors of the universe
That disappeared when you left

In you I found myself
And in you I lost myself

As I stand,
Staring out at the edge of forever,
Death approaches
Welcoming me home
With open arms
To a bed of eternal ease
And weightlessness.
All that’s left to do
Is let go

My scars run deep.
Memories of pain etched
Where the metal kisses skin.
Even though the pain
Doesn’t seep,
The guilt flows heavy
With the red waves
And shame wraps it’s arms
Around me like a blanket
As I stand gripping the scissors
Willing the world to just
Stop

She was an entire universe
In a single soul
But all he saw
Was a planet

The hardest part
Of letting you go
Is the fear that
I’ll lose myself too.