"Remember"
My brain says
"No one likes you"

I sit here and listen as if
A mental illness knows
Everyone in the world

Some times you stand so close to me
Some times I catch you staring
At times you lean on me and sigh
And every time I shiver

Some times when you laugh your eyes seek mine
Some times you hug me from behind
At times I think maybe just maybe
And every time I'm hopeful

Some times you stay away so long
Some times you hardly speak at all
At times you seem angry
And every time....every single time

I miss you

If you close your eyes tight
The tears take longer to fall

Breathe deep
Inhale.....exhale

There....the pain was never there at all

Maybe i don’t cry
but it hurt
Maybe i don’t say
but i feel
Maybe ..
I don’t stay
but i really care

There is an apple
lying in the street
pure in color,
bitter in taste.
I want to find
what lies beneath the poison.
There is a sky
just above our heads.
Acid rain
burns skin.
I want to feel
the purer water.

Couldn't sleep again-
I woke up feeling lonely-
It's only Monday.

6:32 PM
11/2/20

"I'm an open book"
She says

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