I was only 10 years old
You were 23
I lived with my great grandmother
Oh how she loved me

You were my big cousin
I was your little cousin
I laughed and played
You called me in your room and touched me

I promised not to speak
I promised to keep it a secret
but some promises should break

I only told my best friend
We grew up together and
any secret of mine was a secret of hers
She promised not to tell
but she did anyways

She tried to keep it for a while
I swear
but then my school friends found out
They promised to keep it a secret too
but then they told the principle at school

She called for me
and I approached
"Cheyenne is what the girls told me true?"
I looked down
and cried
nodding my head
She hugged me
and told me to go to her office
I did

I sat there for a while
Eventually the police came
Then i talked
hours later the nurse was kind enough to give me a ride home

I know you are angry at me
but some secrets should break
You don't know what pain I've been through over this

One of my friends went against me
and told the whole class
and thought it was funny

I was taken away from my great grandmother
Oh how she cried when I left
and now i'm forced to live with my abusive father

Yet I have no petty for me
Your the one I feel sorry for
and this is my apology

I apologize that I put you in jail
I apologize that every night in your cell that man touches you
The same way you touched me

This is my fault
I should of kept my mouth shut
If I would of I'd still live with my great grandmother
Your mom wouldn't tell the family I lied about what you did to me
Then my family wouldn't hate and criticize me
I'd still be loved by the people I grew up around

Some may say you should apologize
Because your the one who touched me
Your the reason my family hates me
Your the reason I have no one

But I can't blame you
I'm too soft hearted
I can't hold grudges
Forgive me please
This is my apology

Why?
I don't do that much wrong,
I'm not sassy,
I'm not rude,
I'm not belligerent.
Why do you treat me
Like I am some disease
That you need to control and
Destroy?
Am I not a person too?
Am I not your daughter?
I don't quit,
I keep trying.
But you have quit on me.
Aren't you suppose to be my biggest fan?
My hero?
You can't listen this far.
You can't hear what is a word away.
YOUR thoughts and actions tore
This riff.
YOUR thoughts and actions are
What you say I do.
You will not listen.
Your thoughts are too loud.
You will never understand the
Pain,
Heartbreak,
Fragility,
Worthlessness,
Tragedy,
Destruct­ion,
You have created in my life and then you tell me
That is my future.

I guess I learned all I need to know from you.