Anthea

Anthea Apr 2019

Wait

I'm anxious
That you'll stop needing me
The bricks between us keep getting taller
And harder for me to hurdle
I'm always the one scaling the wall
Pick axing through the center
So I can grab your hand
And yell wait!
I'm uneasy
That you'll stop wanting me
The miles between us keep getting longer
And harder for me to walk
I'm always the one running the path
Hijacking cars and speeding
So I can miss your hand
And yell wait!
I'm stressed
That you'll move on without me
The calendar keeps flipping
Years and years go by
I'm always the one trying to catch up to you
Running out of breath
So I can see the back of your head
And yell wait!

But you don't hear me...

#sadness #friendship #relationships #love

Anthea Feb 2019

Ebb & Flow

We've grown apart
And back together
Through seasons and seasons
Of stormy weather

#love #friendship #relationships #breakup #makeup #nature

Anthea Feb 2019

Blood Moon

And like the rare blood moon
Shining rouge hues against my skin
He saw me
But I was too afraid to ask how I looked
For 2 years and 2 months
My tears are falling
When his voice carries through my room
It's palpable
Struck with the realization
That like the blood moon
Even he could see a woman like me every once in a while
Struck with the pain of knowing
In a different reality
We may have been lovers
And in this one
We'll always be a night sky apart

#moon #blood #love #rejection #romance

Anthea Jan 2019

Wind

And I had a dream
That the winds took me
Up and up
Above the clouds
And I couldn't fall back down
I wondered what it means
But I already knew
If I'm meant to be at all
I'm meant to be with you

#wind #love #dreams #friendship #feelings #emotions

Anthea Dec 2018

Evergreen

A garden in a sidewalk
Is stepped on too many times
But she is re-planted
A flower swept out to water
Drowns without a raft
But she is taught how to swim

You keep her strong

You are citrus blue and evergreen
And you give her everything she needs

#friendship #love #hardship #determination

Anthea Nov 2018

Melancholy Eyes

My melancholy eyes
Poured streams into the ocean
For a man who didn't know how to swim

#love #pain #romance #rejection #sadness

Anthea Oct 2018

Cherry Sunset

I'm healing now
Washing the debris from the beach sands he tainted
Letting my ocean of tears out for high tide
To scrape the memory of him from the land
I'm laying these feelings to rest
A cherry sunset in my chest
I'm healing still
And the warmth of the light against my Scorpio waters makes me feel better
Salty waves washing him further down
His litter resting on my heart’s floor
How long until he completely dissolves?
Regardless,
I think I'm healing now
Laying these feelings to rest
The cherry sunset in my chest

#love #sadness #breakup #unrequited #healing #self #beach