Phoenix-Rising

Phoenix-Rising Apr 2020

I am telling you things
I would never dare
tell my own family

I would worry
that they would worry
about me

But I need to share
my feelings
I need to write

So I write to you
I trust you
to keep my secrets

#trust #secrets #poetry #family #worry

Phoenix-Rising Apr 2020

issues

we all have issues
especially you and i
but mostly me

i have trust issues
and body issues
and love issues

and a multitude more
but you choose
to love me anyway

and i hope only
to be able
to return the favor

thank you
for alway being there
remember i’m always here too
i love you

#love #issues #help

Phoenix-Rising Apr 2020

Speak Up

I get that you’re angry
I can see it in your face
But not everyone knows you
Like I know you, so for once
Speak up

Speak up for yourself
Because no one else will do it for you
What happens when I am no longer here
No longer telling them
What you want me to tell them

What happens when a nod
Or a shake of your head
Isn’t interpreted the way
You mean for it to be
Just please, speak up

#speak #love #voice #found

Phoenix-Rising Apr 2020

Accidents Happen

Yesterday I sat down
In the shower
And cut my leg
On my razor

What hurt more
Was when I showed my parents
I had to clarify
That it was an accident

I know
I broke their trust,
But it hurts
That they’re always worried

#depression #selfharm #hurt #sadness

Phoenix-Rising Apr 2020

sometimes

I don’t know why
I’m sad sometimes.

I just am, I guess,
it’s just the way my brain works.

I don’t understand it,
so it’s okay if you don’t.

I get if you’re frustrated with me,
sometimes so am I.

All I need from you
is patience and love.

And understanding that
I am trying.

I’m trying to be happy
and trying not to be a burden.

#sadness #depression #love #understanding #help

Phoenix-Rising Apr 2020

Fears

I could list
a thousand things
I’ve never feared
like darkness
or death

I haven’t been
scared of blood
or of falling
since they first
entered my nightmares

But in reality
it’s hard to hide
from shadows
and all these
silent voices

And some days
I fear the stars
will hide from me
and our souls won’t meet,
but turn into lonely ghosts

I’m not scared to die
I’m scared to live
I’m not scared of you
Just scared to love

#life #fears #death #lonely

Phoenix-Rising Apr 2020

Quarantine

What I miss most
About going to school
Is seeing your face

So I zoom with you
To get a bit of that feeling again
But it’s just not the same

Because you’re not here
You’re not with me
And I can’t lean on you

I can’t cry with you
Tell you everything that isn’t fair
Listen to you tell me it’ll be okay

I really do miss you
And I can barely wait
For the day I finally see you again

#covid19 #quarantine #love #alone #lonely