it was so easy to love you,
to adore every little bit of your
youthful soul and take bites
of your cherry heart.

it was so easy to give myself to you,
my whole body, forever marked
by your rough yet tender touch.

it was so easy to kiss you,
the edge of your mouth breathing
onto my tongue, getting drunk
on your taste.

but what wasn't easy,
was forgetting you,
forgetting how you used to call
me yours, how you used to kiss
my eyelids, reassuring me that
everything is going to be okay.

it wasn't easy trying not to call you
at 3 am in the morning,
whispering how much I adore
the sound of your velvet voice.

it wasn't easy deleting you from
my poisoned mind, where you
were the only poison,
my deadly sin.

it wasn't easy giving up on you,
because I thought you mattered
more than the stars and you
proved me wrong in the worst way.

♧

Sunshine and blue skies
so cool is the breeze
Hummingbirds, butterflies,
green apple trees
Daffodils,  daisies
and irises too
Send all my love
*on this morning to you

I don't want to own you
I just want to love you

You call me Lesbian
I say, yes I am
You call me Gay
I say, yes I am
You call me Bi-******
I say, yes I am
You call me Transgender
I say, yes I am
It doesn't matter what you call me
It doesn't matter what you think
you will not change who I am

I am who I am

under the dress
they daintily caress
lips pressed to chest
my fingers slide
where pleasures hide
and feel your eye
that only sees
your inner thighs
they poke and pry
their way inside
the unknown
you rollover and moan
your backbone bows
fingers and toes
themselves almost broke
you've found your throne
now it's time to take you home