I woke up to find you standing
The sun had not yet risen yet
And I wished it never would
I looked at you and asked you to come back to bed
You did
I held you close
But not close enough
I fell asleep though I did not want to
The sun rose
The day started
You stood there flushed with a fever burning your body
And I wished you could stay
That I did not have to leave
But I did
School waited for you
The unknown for me
We got in the car
And a song played in my head
"Close your eyes and I'll kiss you,"
I was going to sing it for you
But I could not get the words to pass my lips
"Tomorrow I'll miss you"
I said goodbye in the parking lot of the high school
And then you walked away
And I wanted to run after you
So I could hug you one more time
To share one last kiss
But I didn't
I got back in the car and drove away
I'll kiss you when I get back
*"And remember I'll always be true. And then while I'm away I'll wright home every day. And I'll send all my lovein to you"

It was 2 am and we were exhausted,
Our bodies pressed together.
But neither of us wanted to close our eyes
For fear of the distance that would come with the rising sun

I'm sorry.
I just can't right now.
I can't sit back and pretend any more.
I'm not going to pretend to be happy for you.
And I'm sorry.
Because this means I can't talk to you,
At least for right now.
You're being too cheery
And I can't take it.
So I'll have to go for now,
But maybe I'll come crawling back to you at midnight,
Dried salty tears and blood staining my skin
As I beg for you to forgive me.
I'm sorry,
I just can't right now.

There are the people who see me smile my plastic smile
And don't realize it's fake
Because its all they've ever seen.

There are people who see my plastic smile
And don't realize it's fake
Even though they've witnessed the smiles that reach my eyes.

There are people who see my plastic smile
And know that it's a fake
Because they've seen me when I'm happiest.

There are people who see my plastic smile
And ask if something is wrong
The problem is, I almost always lie.