Pastell dichter

Pastell dichter Feb 2016

*******

*******
Just ********
Im not going to stop doing something because it makes me happy
You always said "do what makes you happy"
But I guess you changed your mind
Well *******
Im not gonna stop
Im gonna do what makes me happy
And if you don't like it
********

#sad #happy #mom #no #fuckyou

Pastell dichter Feb 2016

oh well

I just wanted to see her,
But you had to say no.
I just wanted to smile,
But you made me cry.
I just wanted to be happy,
Is that to much to ask?
She makes me happy,
Maybe if i saw her more then,
I wouldn't cry myself to sleep every night.
You don't know what she does to me.
She helps me.
She is my light.
She is the color in a world of grey.
Why do you have to be so cruel?
What did I ever do to be so hurt?
Oh well,
I guess ill be crying myself to sleep,
Again.

i was going to have my girlfriend up. but my mom won't let me. so ill be over in the corner crying because i only feel happy around her.
sorry for bothering you.

#love #sad #crying #hurt #no

Pastell dichter Jan 2016

Mind

I feel small
All alone
I wish you where here
I wait for you
My heart aches
My love
I feel broken inside
Shatered into a million peices
My mind is dark
I feel alone
Bad thoughts
Dark days
Help me back
From the somewhere I have been
My mind is hurting me
I don't know what to do
Alone
I don't know
What to do
If I can
I love you
Do I?
Yes
I do
All alone
Help
Not safe
Hide me from myself
Can anybody help?
You won't
But I thought I might ask
Just in case
Oh well
Goodnight
No
Can't sleep
The nightmare
It will come again
I'm sorry
Babe
I didn't mean it
Don't leave
Me
Please
I'm trying
I really am
Sorry
So
So
Sorry
Can't sleep
Can't dream
The dark will come again
My dark
Sorry
Sleep
Nononono
Can't
I love you
I'll try to sleep
Maybe
But the nightmare
It will begin again
Sorry

#love #sleep #dark #mind #nightmare #again

Jan 2016

Liz And Lilacs

You have a new voicemail.

Hi
Your voice... It's so nice to hear again.
It almost hurts....
but I've been so numb since you've been gone.

You've reached me
Have I?
I hope you're in heaven.
I never believed in god or an afterlife,
You know that.
but I hope there is now.

I'm out of reach right now
Because you won't be out reach forever,
If you're in heaven.
But heaven knows, I won't see you again.
You're so far gone.

But leave a message
And the closest I can get
is sitting at your tombstone.
Stone is cold and it doesn't warm my heart
like you once did.

and I'll get back to you as soon as possible.
I miss you so much,
And I will see you soon.

Your call is important to me.

*beep

Jan 2016

mike dm

Untitled

i guess poetry can be used
to inspire optimism
and make people feel good,

but i'm looking for the kind of poetry that
eats the air
from my lungs and
sifts my holes
with a fistful of dead flowers.

Pastell dichter Jan 2016

Its not over till the fat lady sings

Its not over till the fat lady sings.
Well what if I'm not done?
What if I want to stay?
What if I don't want to listen to the curvy angel?
What if I want to stay shining?
I don't want to leave,
I want to sing my own song,
I will live my own life,
On my terms and not some lades.
Thank you but,
Its not over till I say so.

#life #sings #itnotovertillthefatladysings #thankyoubutno