"my thoughts have aligned themselves as poetry"

*doesn't that make them even more beautiful?

Some nights I can't bring myself to turn on the bathroom light because I don't want to see the scars.

Some nights I can't sleep because the pain of the day is heavy on my shoulders.  

Some nights I cry and sob because I feel like I can't do it and I'm not enough.

Some nights I pick up the blade and I can't bring myself to put it back down again .

Some nights I just want to sleep and never wake back up.

Some nights I gasp and shake from the cold and fear.

Some nights I hum softly because I can't stand the silence.

I sit here feeling nothing
I'm not hungry
I'm not sad
I'm not happy
I'm just empty

I went from really hi
to very low
in a matter of minutes

I'm sorry I couldn't help you
I'm sorry I feel like I failed you
I'm sorry I feel helpless
I'm sorry but you didn't tell me
I could have tried
I could have been there for you
I'm sorry
You can tell me anything
I will listen
You don't have to be afraid
I love you

I've missed you, old friend.
I thought I had lost you forever,
And I didn't know what to do.
But now I have found you once more,
And we'll carve beautiful poetry
Without any words.

hey love
i know your scared
i am too
but we can do this
together
because we are strong
and i believe in us
i love you so much
i know you are strong
ill be right here for you
im not going anywhere
i love you