I used to speak and sing more often
Until some more people came so my voice was forced to soften
I would tell funny stories and I knew I was a riot
Until someone came up and yelled at me to be quiet!

The sun can't come out to shine without the moon
And every stories character needs a boon
So that everything can be fair
I suppose I can't always win
But I can at least show my grin
But instead all I got was a glare

I know I'm funny so why am I being put down
Especially when it takes less muscles to frown
I wanted to speak my mind and let myself be heard
But I knew all my words would be blurred

An actor can't come out on stage without a crowd
And it wouldn't be a cool fall day without at least one cloud
It wouldn't be me without a smile
And it wouldn't be a child's room without a pile

So in this time of fear and dread you can at least try to smile
Even if you get bad looks you know it won't be vile
So get yourself out there on a zoom meeting or something
And maybe read something that's not crushing

A writer can't write about something that carries no weight
And a fish isn't likely to bite without bait
So before I drop my pen to go pet my cat
Why don't you reach out to a friend to chat!

Don't assume you know me
Cause you don't

Don't make up **** about me in your head
Yes, I'm anxious, but I can do stuff on my own

I am not a baby
We are the same age

You say you're a man
Than act like it instead of hiding behind the veil of depression everyone hides behind

I used to hide behind that veil
But that led me nowhere

You say you wanna be a writer
But you have to not hide behind that notebook

Come out from behind those pages
And face me

I'll give you one hell of a poem to write about

Last summer

I tried to cut off a part of my body

The scar is still there

I'm stupid

But my ******* aren't a part of me anymore

It is Tuesday March 17th
Stuck in the house with my family
School was cancelled
Friends cannot visit
Therefore I am here
I made a *** of mint tea for me and OJ's little sister
And did a lot of work OJ had not done
Checking email periodically to see if anyone died
I got up at 8 to clean the bathroom
Enjoyed some coffee with a waffle and jam

As I'm here I await a message from a friend on Skype
Staring at the screen as I write out this poem
As the words flow through my mind

I take a break and watch an old fashion loony tunes cartoon

I am engulfed in nothing but darkness and light

Fading
Fading away

Pieces of myself shatter into the abyss
Then I wake up

I'm in the hospital again
It's cold and smells strongly of chemicals

The moonlight shines through the window
And shines on my pale face

I close my eyes for a second
And I open my eyes to a small blonde girl with piercing blue eyes

She was obviously a hallucination
But she felt so real

She flung herself onto me
And told me itll be okay

She rubbed my neck
"That rope doesnt belong there"

She, after awhile stood up and looked at me fall asleep

And seemingly joined with the moon