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Jimmy Apr 2018
This is the day

The moment

The time

Everything went ablaze

And IT WAS ALL MY FAULT

Saying SORRY just doesn't cut it

I ******* WISH it did

But unfortunately IT DOESN'T
I wish my phone would have just died or my internet could have gone out. I regret everything I said today, other than saying I LOVE YOU.
I am a schlub
  Apr 2018 Jimmy
Kat
Steps for Life:
1. Wake up and brush your teeth twice and use mouthwash.
    Make sure your teeth are pearly white.
    Floss so your teeth don't rot with grim.
2. Drop in some eyedrops,
    so no one can see that you cried.
3. Choose your clothes.
    Don't choose something that isn't name brand.
    Don't choose something that's ugly or unflattering.
    Wear your waist trainer so that your waist can be thin and your
    stomach is flat.
4. Get your makeup together.
    Wear the right color eyeshadow, make sure your lashes long enough,
    make sure you choose the right color to match your outfit.
5. Pick the right shoes.
    Choose the heels that are in season.
    It doesn't matter if they aren't comfortable you have to wear them to
    be cool.
6. Go to school
    Go to school and suffer.
    Hang out with the popular kids.
    Be rude to other girls and criticize them for not having the money to
    afford clothes like yours.
7. Come home.
    Lift a few weights to keep your arms thin.
    Swallow a nasty concoction and have dinner so you can rid of it.
8. Repeat for the rest of your life because you won't ever be good enough.

To a girl, why is life about the size of your thighs?
The thinness of your waist.
The color of your eyes,
The color of your skin.
The flatness of your stomach
The shape of your jaw.
The length of your legs.
The way you walk and whether or not you fall.

They hid the pain.
Because pain is beauty.
And beauty was all that matters.
The biggest goal is to be popular but to be popular you have to be liked.
No one likes an unattractive girl.
No one likes a girl who isn't pretty.

To be popular, to awesome to other people, to be cool,
You have to make yourself suffer from the pain that is beauty.
You can't eat anything you want if you do you'll gain weight and you'll be fat.
You can't eat all 3 meals because you'll get fat. Instead, you have to eat a bit for some energy but then force it all back up because too much food will ruin your flat stomach and no one likes a girl who's fat.

You can't eat certain foods because it's messy and people see your face being a mess than say goodbye to your popularity because no one likes a messy girl.
You can't join certain clubs and you can't get straight A's. This is because no one likes a brainiac girl or all the other fantastic words.
You can't wear sweatpants if you aren't required too. Sweatpants aren't flattering and if no one likes you then neither should you.

You will suffer in silence
Because everyone thinks that you're fine.
You have to follow a strict diet or else your popularity will die.
No will see the cuts on your thighs because that's the only place they won't show.
You can cut your shoulders, your wrist or stomach but people will see and think of you as a depressed emo and no one wants to be seen with that freak.

Society has girls be trapped in a box where they follow the same horrible routine.
Inspirational people say that the box is paper and you can just break it to be free.
If the box is paper why am I so weak?
Why can't I break it?
Those inspirational people are wrong.
The box isn't paper.
It's stone.
*DISCLAIMER* This poem could be triggering
Jimmy Apr 2018
Her beauty-
stunning like a shooting star soaring across an abandoned night sky.

Her personality-
vibrant as an early morning sunrise.

Her hair-
beautiful as a Christmas snow.

Her smile-
warming like a summer night bonfire

Her lips-
gentle as a baby butterfly

Her skin-
smooth like Mulberry silk

Her thoughts-
endless like a rainbow

Her heart-
mountainous like the Appalachian Trail

Her love-
addicting like a drug

And her laugh-
precious and breathtaking like the 7 wonders of the world
This beautiful girl has me losing my mind. I can't and won't stop thinking about her.
  Apr 2018 Jimmy
Jerry
She’s a Poem
He’s an Invisible Ink

She’s a Love Ballad
He’s a Vocal Less Echo

She’s a Soothing Lullaby
He’s a Muted Lyric

She's a Warm Breeze
He's a Whimpered Wind

She’s a Wished Rain
He’s a Thirst in Desert

She’s a Flying Dream
He’s a Falling Demon

She’s Nourishing on Pages
He's Dissolving into Ink

As if, Final Chapter of His Book in a Making?
She May Breathe Forever in His Silent Echoes...
for you dearest 'Lady of the Sea'
Jimmy Apr 2018
It comes and goes like migrating birds, sometimes here for several months other times gone in a couple, moving onto the next poor sucker. No matter how hard I beg, how loud I scream, it always returns back to the place where it all started. It leaves cold and darkness in its place. Maybe one day I can be set free and fly far, far away from all my scary nightmares like migrating birds.
Jimmy Apr 2018
I wish I wasn't so weak otherwise this would be my 2nd year just resting peacefully next to that creek. I tried to call it quits but like always I couldn't take any of the hits. I got in my car and accelerated very fast hoping to finally make all this pain end in a firery blast. I wish I would have hit that bridge so I could be buried on some random unknown ridge. Why couldn't I have gotten unlucky? I mean after all my life was very mucky. Maybe it was an act of God or maybe is was from the sad music playing on my iPod. I just wish the pain would disappear so my mind could go back to being very clear. I thought it was my turn to go since I've never felt so low. I still have thoughts of this day wishing that it could have ended in another way. I have tried to become happy but I'm always feeling ******. I have tried to mask my pain but in reality my life is swirling down the drain. Maybe all this is just a big message from above trying to show me that I should just try to love. One day I'll get the urge to get back in the car I just hope that I don't go too far. Maybe in a few years from now I can look back at this post and think; wow I'm really glad I didn't turn myself into a ghost!
If you ever feel depressed just remember all that there is to live for. Don't give in to the devil, instead write poetry, run, yell, sleep. Just don't harm yourself the world is better with you in it.
Jimmy Apr 2018
Is it possible to wanna get married without ever meeting in real life? Especially if you have never even met their family or friends. Could it work or will this seemingly endless love eventually run out? What if the two lovers come from completely different backgrounds. Would this enticing marriage last? I've always wondered and now I'm searching for answers. I just want to be happy but maybe this is too much to ask.
Amanda you're my #1
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