Falling backwards through a poisonous hedge
Standing at the window, at the edge of the ledge
Swimming out to sea with weights in your clothes
Swallowing the pills, bought from those rogues

Hanging from the ceiling with a noose around your neck
Cutting wrists the right way, oh the lives it would wreck
But I could be happy and able to sleep
But the others would suffer, no benefits to reap

Make the choice to stay, put others first
Work on yourself, ignore the dark thirst
Life is for living and live you will
When the outside is moving, keep the thoughts still

Release the control and go with the flow
Forget about everything you already know
Learn those lessons, keep a kind heart
Be the innocence you were at the start

It's like a dark cloud that looms high above
Seeping into everything, the opposite of love
You can't really see it, but it's always there
You will hear it at times, but only if I share

The rawness is real, not for most ears
Don't like to divulge, can't see your tears
Everything is void as the black rain falls
Here's the cloud again, the obvious calls

The heavy pull begins, I'll fight fire with fire
I'm stronger than you think, and an excellent liar

Show me the way to hear mermaids singing
Instead of this obscurity I seem to be bringing
Show me the way to be happy and free
To let go of fear and somehow find me

Show me a way to get back to the good
To release all this hatred like I know I should
To release this turmoil and find my calm
To practice self love instead of self harm

To look in the mirror and like what I see
To not be scared of what stares back at me
The time has come, I pray it's not too late
To **** this demon, to leave this state

See me I'm confused, don't trust anymore
Is it human nature, evil to the core
Too many questions and the absence of answers
Depression my dear, you're my sadness financer

Inner voice, hello, there you go again
You come and you go but your usually the same
You know so much yet I still distrust
Listen to you intently now this is a must

Intuition,gut feelings, higher power and more
I hear you, I feel you, deep down in my core
It's a gift that you were given aged five
That gift you were given, it's kept you alive

It's taught you some lessons, both good and bad
It's helped your emotions, both happy and sad
It's made you quite blunt, you call what you see
Losing friends and lovers, that feeling is key

A form of protection, an inner radar
knowing things that others don't, especially from afar
Energy and vibes also known as sixth sense
You're lucky to have this gift but your ******* intense

Sat here observing, you think you're so cool
You're on your 12h line, you look like a fool
The ego is out with wild dominant force
You're back in that bubble, a chemical course

It's quite sad to see you this way
The path of destruction, the price that you pay
For you have lost everything and yet you don't see
Can't enable anymore and next you'll lose me

You don't feel the loss or the damage you've done
Your brain's that ****** up, I now need to run
Guilt plays a big part in why I chose to stay
Your blame game did this, hope you understand one day

See I've started to see this is no life for me
I choose love and life and successful I'll be
You still need to wander that dark lonely road
Destroying yourself whilst your morals erode

When love ends, madness begins
One person loses, the other one wins
You both become strangers, but that's ok
Cut him off, move forward, it's just the best way

Wish him the best, or hope for the worst
It's your decision, blessing or curse
Was it real love or did loneliness surfice
If it's the latter, you still pay the price

Paid with your emotions, it's the currency of care
But we were meant to be together, think that if you dare
It never ends well and people are damaged
You took on too much, way more than you'd manage

The battles were drawn and I pushed him away
Couldn't have him close, he's a bad one they'd say
So here we are now, right back at the start
Strangers with distance, many miles apart

I'm not really sure if I can wish you the best
I'd like it if I could, I'd be really impressed