Where expectations are rooted
disappointments will grow
We either always forget this
Or are too stubborn

I wish I was afraid of heights.
Or guns, or spiders. Anything.

I don't even look
both ways when I cross the road,
anymore.
If I get hit,
No loss, no gain.
Anyone reading this would think I'm insane

But I am scared of one thing -
Terrified.
And that's my own name.

Everything has lost its colour,
Even on the sunny days.
I'm almost certain that the lake used to be bluer,
that your eyes used to burn brighter.

Perhaps it's just a blurry lens,
But I fear my vision's changed

It's beautiful when
you find that dusty corner
in your memories

The ringing from the piano fades,
as I watch the dance of my trembling fingers
come to a halt.

I thought I wanted to sing
but the melodies are trapped in my throat,
and soulless

Then the notes begin to slide down the page,
no longer able to compete with the
Suffocating silence

The moon is my loyal company
She has been looking at me
Pass midnight she tells me ..." Why don't you sleep?"
I tell her you are all I have now, to deal with all this pain
Could you please hold me forever, and never go away
She tells me everything is temporary, even the pain I feel
Tomorrow is another day and the sun will shine bright for me
I tell her I want my life back, how did this happened to me ?
She shouts "love, this had to happen to make you the person you need to be"
I ask her why can't we go back, when my family was one again?
She kisses me and tells me: "come lay next to me"
See, life can be rough even for little girls like you
But know my darling that in dark times, I'll keep my light up for you
~MR