I am tired of searching
tired of giving my heart
to doors that never open fully
I want a love with courage
a soul that dares
to stay
to grow
to walk with me
sampai kahwin
But what I find are echoes
half-ready hearts
ya da ya da excuses
companions only for boredom
never for forever
Sad, isn’t it
to want something real
and always be met
with almost
So I laugh
HAHAHAHHAHA
because what else can I do
when silence answers my hope
when absence feels louder than love
Please
have a purpose
in whatever you want in this life
do not give hope
when someone prays
for something true
Love is not a pastime
not a bandage for loneliness
not a shelter you abandon
once the rain has passed
Love is vow
Love is courage
Love is forever
And though I am so tired
I still carry this small flame
believing
somewhere
someone will be ready
not halfway
but whole