For all the days I wake
To the sun that sneaks a peek,
I tell myself to take a grip
Before the reality slips.

You tell everyone you’re ok
But you hide in the dark
Buried beneath insecurity and doubt
Fearing the next day’s spark

You have a smile
But its never really real
Because you stopped feeling
And it stopped hurting after a while

You can feel your heart beating
But after so long
It doesn’t seem to be doing its job
After every beat failing and restarting

You can't believe this is living
But this is all it will ever be
Shaking and cracking with every breath
You simply want to stop being

For those times I have cried,
And wept every night,
Questions are bugging me
They're filling up my mind.

How could I love,
And never be loved?
How couldn't I get,
When I've given what I got?

How could I forgive,
When I wasn't forgiven?
How could I believe,
And how come he never listened?

How come she came,
And got what I want?
When all I ever wanted
Was all of your love.

But now I have seen
How happy you've become
And all of my questions
From thousands became none.

Who, What
When, and Why
I could finally say goodbye.

We built a world
Where eternity exists
In a small box.

-- Eleanor

Many months have passed
Memories have turned to dust
Were you real or not?