Running far a way...a way from everything and everyone.... running from the butterflies that once were... from the happiness I feel when I'm with you... im leaving everything behind because I feel so stupid so guilty for falling head over heels for you

Here's a story of a depressed girl
Living in a lonely world
Hiding her wounds
With jack and gin
                                                  
She lived alone most her life
Though the rooms were crowded
Sitting aside from them all
Waiting to be smothered                  

She wrote her feelings among pages
Cutting her memories skin deep    
Leaving scars among the places
Where she used to sleep        
                                                                    
she walks amongst the hidden halls
Leaving no trace to be seen
The color red was her friend
In which was upon
the floors she breath

Such a depressed girl
Looking for a cure
Which she could never find

She looked for better places
Searching for familiar faces
Hoping she would be seen

But never again would she
Have ever been happy
For this depressed girl
Took it upon her
To leave the pages soaked
Forever smothered with her
Hopes and dreams

I loved you when I first met you
you loved me
Days went by
our love grew strong you see
Things fell apart
We went our separate ways
But sadly I still loved you
like I had that day

I waited
Just waited
Waiting for the day
When you would text me

"Good morning beautiful"
How I waited for those 3 words
To pop up onto my screen

I waited    
Just waited
But they haven't came

So I wondered
And keep on wondering
Do you even miss me

a month has gone by
Still no word
I'm so crushed
But you don't see                

I hide my feelings
Behind closed screens
I pretend it doesn't bother me
Secretly it's driving me crazy

I fooled around
I had my fun
But none can compare to you

I miss your silly little smolder
The way you held me
I miss the fun times we had
The endless nights we slept together

I can go on forever
I wish it was different
I know it can't be
But if ever you need me
You know where to find me

His beauty is beyond words
His words are beyond exotic
His mind is a mystery
For in which I want to solve it

I've never met someone
As wonderless as he
The way he made my heartache
Drop down to my knees

He took me by surprise
When his lips came across mine
I looked a way biting my lip

He was a god like no other
So many beautiful women
Had fallen for his power

I was just the norm
The girl that he had mistaken
But it was obvious
That tonight I was his for the taken
                                
He then kissed me again
This time I let him
The way his lips taste
Was like pure magic

Bodies pressed together
Feeling like teenagers
Hoping not to get caught    

Shirts now come off
I cover myself
I hate how my scars
Show in the dark

He grabs my arms
pins them above him
Now fingers intertwined

Gentle neck kisses
slowly I believe this is happening
I then close my eyes

I feel him move lower
His head now reach my thighs
Tiny little nibbles
My body starts to struggle
Never wanting this to stop

"Take me"  

Then our bodies become one
Breathless and tried
Slightly excited
"Please don't let this ever stop"  

Once it's all over
I look him into the eyes
I see the way he looked at me
As if he just won a prize

Little cries come from the other room
Now he's putting on his pants
I look at the clock and notice the time
He says "you can stay for the night"

A love like tate and violet
Tragic but beautiful
Ever untouchable but non lasting
I once thought I wanted a love like this
But I want a love that's ever lasting
Tragedy is beautiful
But I would rather die
in the arms of someone faithful
So why have a love like tate and violet
When you too can create a beautiful love
Full of tragedy but that's ever lasting

Our beautiful disaster
Our greatest master piece
In which the world could see
That we weren't ment to be
Vocabulary so harsh
It cut deep into the seams
Take one more hit
One more mental break
Which only leaves heartache