Talia

Talia Jul 2018

you hate me so much
the constant tears and panic attacks you give me
You said you loved me not so long ago
I want to hate you
why can't I hate you
why won't you get out of my mind?
you want nothing to do with me
our conversations are dull
I can tell you hate me
you're my ex fiancé, why can't I let you go
why can't I say goodbye
please let me forget you already
because I hate you too.

#goodbye #forever #hate #forget #dull

Talia Jun 2018

Three months ago

that's when you proposed
I had waited all my life, to finally be your wife
but there's something you weren't telling me
I couldn't tell what it was
the days went by, you got worse and worse
by the time I had noticed it was too late
should I think it's a big mistake
that your hand was reaching out
and it was way beyond my reach

Talia Jun 2018

silver necklaces

those necklaces with our names engraved
I would only look upon them in grief
because we got them when we were engaged
although the engagement was awfully brief
we both believed we were going to get married
we both new what we were going to do in our lives together
your suicidal feelings were buried
and they consumed you, your mind was lost forever
you say you still love me and that your mind is just lost in the void
I can't really understand why you didnt tell me sooner
losing everything made you paranoid
like everything we had dreamt of in the future
so inside your jacket I hid both the necklaces for you to find
what you pulled out made you cry, our silver necklaces remain on your mind

#engaged #marriage #necklaces #engraved #consumed

Talia Jun 2018

"I just thought I was going to marry you and maybe someday have a beautiful family."

So did I
so why did you propose
when you knew it would end like this
you say you wish you could still love
but darkness has consumed you
you ask me not to leave you, all alone
because if I leave too I'd be treating you like your own family
but you broke my heart
how could I blame you when I knew you were falling into the darkness, yet I had done nothing to save you
how could I?
you thought we'd grow old together
to spend the rest of eternity with our souls bound together
you said you wanted all of me, all of you to me
so did I.

#family #marriage #darkness #alone #love #depression

Talia Jun 2018

edge of the big reveal

If I never met you
I wouldn't be trapped here
if only I hadn't met you two years ago
I would still be happy to hear
that she loved me so
But I loved him instead, she didn't get the message
after the big reveal, he never wanted me,
despite even proposing for marriage
I showed him my scrapbook of fantasies
while she's trapped in purgatory
but he took it all from me
this could be the end of the story
because you didn't like what you see.

#purgatory #story #love #reveal

Talia Jun 2018

"I love you too"

I was your slave
to every end of your lust
I'd be punished if I were to misbehave
but this addiction to you was a must
you said it was forever
I was too naive to know that it's never true
I've been addicted to every part of you since November
and way beyond that, and you never had a clue
until that one fateful autumn day
when what you said started it all
and what I said, was no misplay
little did I know what I answered would result in my downfall.

#love #slave #lust #forever #autumn #said #downfall

Talia Jun 2018

Unsatisfied

You don't feel the same way as before
did you ever feel that way in the first place?
We've heard it all in the lore
here I rest my case
You're unsatisfied
I didn't "pleasure" you enough?
Lust manifests
you can make it rough
and witness the effect
you don't love me anymore
you just wanted my body
why didn't you tell me before
before all this
I waited for the right reasons
it's not fair
pain heals with the seasons
but you wouldn't care.

tease me,
play me,
kiss me.

curiosity killed the cat.
and satisfaction never brought it back.

#unsatisfied #love #anymore #lust #uncontrolled