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LucidLucy Apr 2017
Ain't no hope for this restless soul.

My work is the only piece I find whole.

The rest of me I am yet to see.

The rest of me needs to get away from me.

My bitter past is holding me back.

Future needs to be fixed, stacked on a rack.

Maybe next year I'll find a better replacement of you.

Or I can start this year,  while my beers are still cold and new.
LucidLucy Mar 2017
May mali sa nangyayare sa buhay ko.

Bakit nagiisa lang ako?
Tama ba tong ginagawa ko?

Ginagawa kong dahilan yung pagkawala mo.

Ganito ba dapat ang maramdaman ko?
Para akong matutuluyan sa kahibangan ko.
Isang pitik pa, isang kanta, isang malupit na alala.
Kung matitimbang lang ang luha, siguro aabot na yung akin sa tonelada.
Nakakatawa. Wala atang makakatapat sa narating nating dalawa.


Hindi ko gusto tong estado na to.


Ayokong kalimutan lahat ng masayang alaala.


Sa lahat ng pagkakataon na namuhay ako magisa.
Para sa lahat ng sama ng loob na sumabog at di ko natantya.
Sa lahat ng gawain mo na anlakas magpaasa.
Yung ngiti **** tagilid pero nadadale pa din ako.
Yung balbas mo na ambilis tumubo.
Sa dalawang pusa na palagi **** alaga.
Nung mga oras na kailangan ko ng kasama tapos di ka nawala.
Sa katangahan at kababawan ko na naniniwala na nandyan ka pa.
Para sa lahat ng sakit na kailangan ko daanan mag isa.
Lahat ng dating tropa na di na nakakakilala.
Nakataas ang kamao ko pero nakaangat yung daliri sa gitna.


Minsan ang sarap mawalan ng pakialam, ng pakiramdam.
Yung mamuhay na parang dumaan ka lang.
Ang sakit magmahal tapos sasaktan ka lang.
Ang sakit magmahal tapos iiwan ka lang.

Di ako galit sayo.
Di kita papa salvage sa kanto.
Di ko ipagkakalat kung san kiliti mo.
Gusto ko lang mabawasan yung sakit na nararamdaman ko.
Kasi isang taon na, ikaw pa rin laman ng poetry page ko.

Sana isang beses makita ko na lang na masaya na tayo pareho.
Yung tipong pag naalala kita, nakangiti ako nagkekwento.
Ang hirap nga pala talagang kalimutan.
Yung minsan may taong kumilala sayo bukod sa sarili **** magulang.

Ang hirap umasa na may dadating pang iba.
Ang sakit na kasi nung minsang binigay mo yung puso mo sa kanya pero iniwan ka din nya.
Kanya kanyang dahilan, kanya kanyang pinaglalaban.
Kung di din naman tayo magkasama sa huli bakit kailangan pa natin pagusapan.
Nalulungkot ako, di ko itatanggi.
Pakiiwasan mo na lang mag post na masaya ka palagi.
Matagal pa siguro to maghihilom.
Nakakaawa yung susunod kasi naka kandado na yung puso kong mamon.
Yun ay kung meron pang susunod.
Waiting for the healing.
LucidLucy Mar 2017
Is this a momentary passing?
Forgetting what you're missing,
Running and never regretting.
Looking at trees for the first time.
And thinking how weirdly alive they look.
I felt like a newly bought old book.
I kept replaying the same old scenes.
Familiarizing the pain of seeing you leave.
Everyday I lie to forget how miserable it feels.
But then I go back seeing the trees.
How those leaves move as the wind breeze.
How they come alive under the light of a tall post in the dark of the night.
Ironicaly reminding me of hope despite a dark fight.
And all of a sudden I feel my inside smiling.
I look up and saw one star in the night sky shining.
Once again I am humbled to be reminded.
There's one star in the vast of the sky still shining.
That could mean love, hope and happiness all at His proper timing.
Happy.
LucidLucy Mar 2017
A girl has a relationship with a boy.
They seemed to be happy.
That girl however likes another boy.
She fixes her hair every time she talks to this boy.
She lowers down her voice when she speaks to him.
However the boy never noticed.
Because this boy likes another girl.
He teases her every chance he gets.
He sits next to her every lunch time.
And stares at her when no one's looking.
Unfortunately, the girl never noticed.
Because the girl is in love with a boy.
The boy was enough for her and they were happy together.
And she never noticed the other boys because her love for this boy is enough.
And I was watching the whole thing unfold right in front of me. It's sad seeing an impending heartbreak and not be able to do anything about it.
LucidLucy Mar 2017
I still long for the moment.
I still crave the company.
I badly needed reality.

Sadness was hitting me hard.
I never knew I'm a stranger to my own self without you holding my hand.
No matter how drunk I get,
I'm never able to sleep.
No matter how hard I try to forget,
you will never be here.

Tonight someone asked me,
"how do you know when to stop?"
I smiled, shook my head and nod.
Not quite sure how to answer that one.
Cause maybe until now
my heart longs for you to be the last one.
LucidLucy Mar 2017
My jealousy will be the end of me.

To see someone get close to you is nearly killing me.
To not have you is easy.
For her to get you is reality.

I'm jealous for no reason.
Angry without intention.
My mood swings are reserved for my self satisfaction.
To satisfy my aching heart longing for an undivided attention.
LucidLucy Feb 2017
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Okay, now we start fixing.
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