I look into the mirror, but who do I see?
I don't understand, that surely can't be me?
Twisted,odd, chained and not free.
The face looking back looks very lonely.

They look lost, confused if you'd like,
In a way confused, unsure of their life.
They seem to have endured so much, but I am only young.
Is this a future that I can outrun?

The face is too skinny,the hair way too long.
This cannot be me, surely it's wrong?
He looks so regretful, like he's lost the will to live.
Or maybe society has changed him, almost put him through a sieve.

I lost myself today
Have you maybe seen me?
I got lost in the crowd of
who they want me to be

I lay awake in bed
Perhaps I'll start to feel
Dreams are all I have
to know that I'm still real

A spear blows through my chest
Again I start to fall
I scream for help once more
But no one hears my call

Where do I go now
that I'm behind this wall?
Everyone I trust
leaves me lost after all

The walls are closing in
My chains cut deeper still
The echoes start to scream
They go in for the ****

The voices seem to say
"The truth will set you free"
The only one to save myself
has always been me

If I could go back now
and carry what I've learned
I'd find myself again
to try and stop the hurt.

Love
Just like eyes
A world away in the stars
Words in the sky
Hearts in the night
This life is a moment
A way to remember
I know the sea
I say the moon
I have sun hands
Maybe waves of light

Things fall in the ocean
Rain falls on the lost

Comes a small day
People feel blue skies forever
Time took a left
I touch a mind
I hear summer air
I think about a girl
Who looked to be breaking
But when the earth is gone
She'll finally whisper

"Despite the pain
My soul walks in dreams"

Contrary to popular belief,
depression is the best pain killer there is.
It forces itself down your throat,
and canon-***** into your stomach.
Ripples chills throughout your body,
that's when you know it's starting to work.
It pulses through your veins,
numbness radiating through you.
Soon,
there is no pain.
It will consume you until there is nothing left,
just the hollow shell
of a once
happy
girl.

You were told:

"You are tougher
than you think,"
When in fact that is a lie.

You are only as tough
As you think you are,

So think great thoughts,
And be as tough
As you know.

Sometimes
I push myself
To see how far I can go
To see how high I can get
Sometimes
I force myself
To take one more
To see how far I can go
Sometimes
I hate myself
And see no point in this
So I take one more
Sometimes
When I'm with you
I push for more
To see how high we can get
Sometimes
When I'm with you
All I want to do
Is go to the sky
Sometimes
When I'm with you
I think of her
But you can't know
Sometimes
When I'm with you
I hate myself
And see no point in this

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