I had to fall to learn that it’s okay to sin I had to crawl to learn that I can stand I had to fall to learn to walk again They told me Don’t be the victim Lead with your wisdom Don’t be afraid to change Life’s always gonna be a little strange I had to fall to learn to be okay I had to kneel to my knees to learn to pray I had to fall to learn that I can say what sober couldn’t say I told me Don’t be a coward Lead with your power Don’t be afraid of your failure You are your savior I had to fall to learn that I can cave I had to stand to learn that I don’t need saved I had to fall to learn that I am brave
I think I’m going to do it this time. I’m going to cut it out of me. Why? I can’t deal with this anymore. It’s as simple as that. The world is an ocean that washes over me. The sound of the water is deafening. It drowns my heart. My panic becomes as large as the sun and my mind as little as the moon appears. I need release. I need to hurt me before the world can again. Then I can comfort myself. I’m going to make myself a river worth drowning in.
I wrapped my holy legs around his heavy head and let his tongue swim towards salvation. He looked me in the eyes while he was down there breathing for his life. He knew I wanted him to see what he does to me.
I’ve spent my days waiting for you. Searching the crowd for your face, through the sound of your voice and laughter. I stopped breathing the moment you recognized me. As you finally captured my soul with your gaze.