Just when things begin falling into place,
Like stars dancing above the earth in some grand display,
The wings fall off the butterflies in my stomach
And the sun burns out.

Ive... Been good.
Fought it out with my dad.

He knows I despise him.

Spent the night there for my brother,
Couldn't fall asleep till after four.

Got triggered.

Haven't eaten in a bit,
Got my license though.

I've been good.

Dress her up
She’s here for you
Doll her up
As you desire to

She doesn’t feel
She doesn’t see
And she will kneel
That’s how she’s supposed to be

Tie her up
She knows her place
Use her up
She has no grace

She cannot say
That she won’t play
And she will be
What you want her to be

And when you’re done
Just kiss and tell
She won’t mind
After all...she’s for sale.

Warm it up
Until it’s incandescently happy

Stroke it well
Until it shines with joy

Crooked smile
Points to what is to come

Ugly spark
In your eye before you proceed

Tear it out
Leave nothing behind

Squeeze it well
Until there’s nothing left

Slice it up
Lifeless on a plate

Eat it quick
Before the life runs out

No taste there?
You used it all up
You squeezed it all up
You messed it all up
You... made it give up
And it will never beat for you again.

Silly how you can pack 8 years into 30 boxes
Move them away and pack them into a closet
Like it never happened.
Out of sight of mind.
Silly that you think I can do the same
When I wake up everyday
And see three faces.
Both of your daughters.
And my own blurred in the mirror.
The ones you left behind.
With nothing left from 8 years
Just 30 boxes in a closet of remorse.

your name is
forbidden in
my mouth
or in my heart
because when
i think about
you;

i'll cry a little more,
hurt a little stronger
love a little softer
because you no longer
make me feel sober

i'm drunk on the
memory of you

When society rejects you
Nature will open its wide arms
And let you in