I'm thinking of you today
And, for once, I want you out of my head.
I'm imagining the way you left
But still can't accept that you're dead.

I'm missing you today
It's almost been a year now, I still don't understand.
I'm wondering what demons you saw
That ate away at you down to your wit's end.

I'm hating you today
The same way I do every time I hear your name
I'm cursing you, screaming, angry
And you'll never know so it's all in vain.

I'm loving you today
The same way I do every second of every minute
I'm remembering the words I'd say, like,
"Life isn't worth living if you're not in it"

I'm thinking of you today
I can't remember your eyes quite as clearly
I'm missing you today
And I'll miss you forever; I love you dearly.

When from ocean full of tears
leaving behind the sadness
a drop rises pushing behind it's fear
it reaches the heaven
through paths of haziness
and finally comes down
turning into a sweet pearl
on our thirsty face
bringing a smile on
that diligent farmer's face.
Down it goes to the crop roots
and the seeds we did sow
sometimes leaving behind memories
as a vibrant rainbow.