at night i stay awake
thinking about
the past
the entanglement of
our hands
of our hearts
of our souls
sometimes i think of
us
what we were
what we weren't
what we will
never
be

It hurt when you left the first time.
It hurt more when you left the second.
Why are you placing yourself back on my mind?

I don’t hate hearing from you,
But we both know how it affects me.

You are still to this day the only one
Who can make me lose my breath,
Who can make me grow shaky,
Who can make my heart beat out of my chest.
Yet doing these things now is pointless.
Now it’s just from the anxiety,
When I see your name
Light up my phone screen.
You burn my old soul.
You cause my brain
To feel everything
And nothing
At the
Same
Time.

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▬⎼▬⎼▬⎼▬⎼▬⎼▬⎼That You-▬⎼▬⎼▬⎼▬-▬-▬
▬⎼▬⎼▬⎼▬⎼▬⎼Placed-▬⎼▬⎼▬-▬-▬
▬⎼▬⎼▬⎼▬⎼Upon-▬⎼▬-▬-▬
▬­⎼▬⎼▬⎼My -▬⎼▬-▬
▬⎼▬⎼Heart-▬-▬
▬-When You-▬
▬Left▬

Για νεκρούς στρατιώτες
Ρίξαμε τα όπλα μας
Σταματάμε να παλεύουμε
Αυτή τη στιγμή της μνήμης
Είναι μαζί μας
Αγωνίζονται μαζί μας
Έχω δει τις μητέρες μας
Πλήρη δάκρυα
Είναι τόσο γρήγορο
Πού πήγαν εκείνα τα χρόνια;
Οι μνήμες δεν θα τους αφήσουν να κλάψουν
Μόνο αν δεν επιστρέψω απόψε

You're not smooth.
I saw every glance that night.
It was so hard to watch the show
When I could see your glistening steel blue eyes
Searching through my presence.
I was being oblivious.
When you wrapped yourself
Around my left arm
And rested your head
On my shoulder.
I saw your cheeky grin
When my friends looked me
Up and down
In surprise

"Who's your friend?"

I should have kissed you that night.

But I also should have left
Everything in that moment.
Never returning
Messages.
Calls.

I should have left
You.

Then

And

There

Why
weren't
you
there
before?
To stop
the floods.
To stop the
rising waters.
To pull me ashore.
To rip the
stinging urchins
from my feet.
To keep
me from
drowning.
To make sure
we didn't become attached.
Why were you there in the first place?

hey
i know its been a while
since we've
talked
and i don't really
know
if we're still
close or
not
but i
need you back in my life
cause i'm in a fight
with myself
and i don't know
which one of me is
right
i need some
positivity
to get over these memories
i need you to help me to my feet
and if you could
kindly manage
to help a friend who's  really famished
well that old friend would be pretty
sweet
you see i'm starving
i'm hungry for adventure
but i'm also stuffed
from thinking about the future
and if there's one thing
i know
its that you have helped me grow
and on a side note, you'll reap what you
sow
this will give you time in the light
in my life
to give you time
to set things right
with everything that's ever caused you
harm

dear Dafydd,
i need you to come back
just for a little while