This past weekend was better then the first one 2 weeks prior  to it!!!!
It was an incredible weekend (1st one)
But this one was just AMAZING.!!!!
I hope we spend more , many more together for along time.

you are everything that I ever dream....
even your flaws are able to deal with and aren't too extream.

I miss you so much not words can express the ache I feel....
its not going away and its deep and all too real.

If we were still talking it would help me mend this heartache of you....
can you help me out? If you asked me.....id gladly help u.

I don't know what to think or to believe. ..... But everyone knows if anythg happens to me it's *** of ur doing and they have ur  FULL name and more .... Just incase!!!!.

I wAnted u from day one and still would but u won't even agree to meet me and just talk. .....
So am I suppose to just hope and wAit
forever?
I can't just live off words alone!!
I still ache for u and probably always will but u won't even make a call or text me or anythg so why should I sit alone when ur still out having "friends"??
Well now I have one and he's the sweetest thing....
He's trying to rebuild whAt all the men in my life before him have ruinned!!!
I know I'm not gonna marry him or even be his girl ....
But he is something wonderful and a godsend !!!!!

I'm so greatful I met him!!!!

I wonder if u r all of what u seem
Or is it all a facade
of which I dream  ?

I know I'm not very pretty or overly smart

But I truly do love you

And I mean that from the bottom of my heart.

You said ud always be there for me-

Your idea of 'always' is WAY DIFFERENT then mine !!

I want to love every part of you!!!!
The ever so intelligent and ever so passionate....extreamly funny....and even your very dark mind who can be jeckle to ur Hyde often too......
I don't care....I love it all.....
*** I just want to love you!!!

When were together u brighten my world. Those three wonderful days we spend together are more meaningful then any other days I've had.
Your so very important to me and I cherish each second with u!!!

I'm glad u came into my life and I hope u stay for along time!!!!

Ur my burning desire
And when i look at u
It sets my heart on fire.

Please talk to me-
I miss u so much.

This will be my last time to spend with him....
I really don't want this last visit since my attitude will be pretty grim.

I will try my hardest to be as sweet as I can ...
But he will probably lie and **** me off and there goes thst plan ....

I hope to have a nice time and just know it has to end.....
I can't anymore act like I love him... I hate to have to pretend...

There is only one man for me....
And unfortunately you aren't he !!

Words mean nothing when your heart is broken.
There are so many important words that were left unspoken.

I really loved you with all of my heart...and wanted the same from you from the moment it was to start.

I feel cheated and used in every way...
I wish we could go back in time and relive each and every day...

Because I know everything would be so different for us....
since god had a happy ever after ending that was meant for just us.

The happiness of being in love sweetens whatever pain exists. The joy of love promotes and sustains it. -     Ugo Foscolo

At first it was *** I thought he was u.
*** I wouldn't call someone the name that I used in you.
I still say it *** sometimes I think u  and him must share the page due to the way of talking doesn't always stay the same.. But there's only one
And that's you!!!
I always called u that *** it seems to fit and unlocked it so I loved to call u it.
Please don't think that anyone else has filled ur space....
There's no one on earth that can take ur place!!!!!

I love u .
I need you.
I want you.




It's that simple!

How do u let go when they are the one person you've been looking for ur whole life?

If you could just feel for just a minute whats deep inside of my heart.....
Then youd know what I say is totally true.....
From there you can decide if you want to hate me the way you say you do...
But once you felt the complete and innocent true love I feel inside,...then youd know that no one else can ever compete with this roaring ocean tide.

I love u with all my heart
That's barely betting *** it misses you!

Love is the most selfish of all emotions, thus the least generous when hurt!!-  Henri de Rebecque

Oh **** she's here again
She's never asked to visit-
The visits just begin.

At least she never really stays
Maybe for a few days
So it's not any bother
Not to me anyways..

So Aunt Flo in a few days you'll go
But your never really missed
Just thought u ought to know!!!

He is sweet. Beyond anything anyone can dream.

Waiting for it all to crash and burn .... Like it does always seem!!

I will get u back or get u as mine.....
One day. (Soon)!!!!

He is young but when I'm with him he makes me feel europhic!!!

I don't know what else to say or what I can do.... So I can get u to talk to me *** I really want to see u.
If u are so sure u will still feel the same - then why not give me this so I  say my peace and walk away without any inner shame.

I think u don't want to agree to meet me for the reason that u may still care and if we meet  ...
God knows it won't end there!!!!!

Guess how much I love and want you?




More then words can describe ....
Buts it's ALOT!!!!

I want to let u know that I love u so!!! But~
There aren't enough words for me to  u tho

Isn't it better to love one, rather than to embrace many?-     Vamekesvaratantram

Had an awesome weekend ....
Spent with a friend....

I think I can now get over you now....
Since our time has gone beyond the end ....

I've thought all along that he has somethg to do with u....
What I don't get is why u wanted that to happen? If u ask I'm sure He'd say that I talked about u.

*** I still love u.

U r everything to me

I don't want to be without everything!!!!

How do u learn to hate when it's someone I've loved for so long???

I knew I didn't mean Anything to you.
Even though u said I did.  
You are all I want and I don't know why....
But I was just another number - a nAmeless  face..
That makes me just break down and cry.

Everything about you

To me is perfect

Even ur flaws

How can you just forget about a person you once cared about?
When they mean the world to you?