******. you are the most wonderful thing I have ever met.
And I'm not saying that just because I like you too much-
I'm saying that because you are the best thing to look at.
I'm saying that because when I look at you I don't want it to ever end.
I'm saying that because when I hear you laugh I want to be able to play it on repeat forever.
Im saying that because ever since the first day I looked into your eyes- I knew I needed to know everything about you.
I'm saying that because out of anything in the world- I would pick you.


Unfortunately. Some things come to an end, without a second chance.
Who am I kidding? take all you need.
I won't pretend to be as tough as you like to seem.
With all this confusion clouding my once clear skies, I give it all away.
He knows what's right, He knows you'll be back.
all I know is, He will keep me safe.
I wipe my slate clean.
Leave the worry behind.
Sigh in relief - Sigh in disbelief.

I hate it
When they just pretend
To be nice
With forced smiles
With 'Hi & Hellos',
& Stupid 'How are you's...
When they are​ wise
& They knew
Problem of mine
& I am not fine...

With double entrendes,
Pitiful praises,
Corny comments,
Snarky remarks,
They drill hole
Firing bullets of questions
To find my half missing soul...
Like healing(killing) me is there goal....

Why don't they understand
They are hurting me more
Or may be they are doing
This purposely to make me sore....

I just want to scream
on their faces one day,
I knew I would​ gather
That much courage to say....

Darkness envelopes the thoughts of carefree living.
Darkness sets in and we turn to the light.
Don't worry it's taken years to reach this point.
Each battle leading us higher, I can see over the clouds.
Each battle pushing us further below, don't think there's a way out.
Does this sound familiar to you?
Forget the contradictory remarks and thoughts intended to belittle.
Belittle, what?
Belittle the heart.
Does this sound familiar to you?
Thoughts racing like the beat of a drum, droplets of sweat present to accompany the stress.
Hide yourself, they'll never know.
Keep eye contact, they'll never know.
Keep nodding yes, they'll never know.
Does this sound familiar to you?

In the mornings
My eyes they speak
I can't see her they say
I blink to focus,
Blurry images converging to one,
I see your face in my mind
It's not the same.

The smell of your skin
I smile remembering how that was
I turned around one day,
That intoxicating scent!
Your perfume that lingers in my head
You lie, it said, it's someone else,
It's not the same.

Your voice is in my head
That laugh, that texture of tones,
The words that you say,
And those that you don't
Whispers and haunts me so,
Hear me, it said, then, silence.
It's not the same.

The way that we kiss
The way that you taste
Our lips collide and interweaved
My heart skipped and flipped into a knot
Everything falls aside
I let out a sigh.
It's not the same.

I run my fingers
Through your hair
And the way your skin,
So smooth and bare
I felt it as my fingers trace
An invisible line along the way.
It's not the same.

I close my eyes now,
My ears are all blocked
I cannot feel your touch.
The way that you taste
Your scent they fade away
My senses they tell me,
It's not the same,

Without you in my life.

Laying here thinking. It's time to get stitching. Too many holes in my soul to be keeping. No way to reduce the abuse of this world. Oh my god. What's gone wrong? this can't be the fate of our lives. Written on the whispers of all of our hate. Together in spirit but too far away. [this can't be pretend] When days come together and nights come to an end. We'll stare at the stars and dance with the sun. Hoping to never lose what we once saw. Hope of the ages. Hope from the wages. Getting to the top is never a simple hop. Too much of that **** and you'll end up unhitched. Dead in a coffin. Don't worry they're just coughing. too many tears and uncleared checks to put you out on top deck. Born in the butter. Gone with the gutter. Humble the hearts of the people who stumble. Struggle here now. Strengthen here now. Each stone getting lighter than the previous one now. Look down the cliff and notice who you forgot. Pull their cables up and never let 'em drop.